Of family & love

Of family

I took leave today so that I could coincide with my sister's off-day to bring our parents out for a meal. When I told my mum about my leave 3 weeks back, we were deciding on places like Suntec City or Marina Square or Ngee Ann City. However, due to a pain in my dad's leg, a very bad hazy weather AND me who fell ill on Tuesday, we decided, no where far - Changi Airport. Yet another change of plans brought us to Army Market.

Yum yum!! We had prawn noodles, char guo tiao, beef hor fan, beef noodles, tang yuan, chin chow drink, sugarcane, sour plum drink. Yumz!! Did I mention that I am in a family of 4?? Gosh.. I am amazed at the amount that we ate!

We were out only 2 hours or 2.5 hours at MAX. Dogs went crazy. Mum found Sparkle peeing on the papers and tearing it up. Talk about rebellious.. I think I have a VERY rebellious dog!!

Anyhow, my sister had a "revelation". I was happily on my bed watching CSI dvds and she came sauntering into my room with her bolster and huge pillow. She says "Now I know why Sparkle always like to sleep with me whenever I am sleeping. Having a companion feels good." D-uH.. Now I know why she's always in my room sleeping when I am at home.

Of love

Before going out with my parents, I brought Spanner for his afternoon walk and I was pondering on the love letter that God has given to us - 1 Corinthians 13. Before the afternoon walk, I was having a MSN chat with my ex-boyfriend (groom-to-be in January to a wonderful lady). Poor guy got his car window smashed. Well, if I had my car window smashed, I will be on trains or bus. This guy has to be on cabs! And so, I scolded him a spoilt brat. He remarked - Didn't you loved me before cause I am a spoilt brat? I thought about it and said to myself "No. I hated that." Then he remarked again - cause I am cute, adorable and lovable? And I thought to myself "NO WAY MAN!" Well, lovable yes. Adorable and cute, no.

You know, I have been questioned by friends before (long time ago) - Whatever made you love that guy? My answer then and now is still - Him for being him.

Don't worry.. I am not digging up past memories (which was REALLY a long time ago) and reliving them or missing them or anything. It was really a pure conversation that we have.

However, that conversation led me to wonder - Why does God loves me despite me having SO many flaws? While walking Spanner, it just hit me. 1 Corinthians 13 says it all. Love, in essence, is the characteristic of God. Love IS God and God is Love. There's no two ways about that. For Love, God came down as Man to die for me, for the sins that I have borne in me, for the many wrong things that I have done. I guess God sees me as a whole package. I am not dissected like "This is 10% of ugly thoughts, this is 20% of lies told, this is 25% of laziness, etc." Yes, God will be angry with me if I continue to lie and all but I believe God sees me as Sandra and loves me as Sandra.

It was a great annual leave taken!