Camp Aftermaths

Indeed, we are fallible cause we are humans made up of flesh and blood always succumbing to the easy way out thus being led into temptation.

After much struggles with God, nothing is more comparable as the love that I have from the Lord than from any other human being.

THrough the church camp over the weekend, I made a divine exchange of a white cold and hard heart for a red, warm and pumping heart.

I found it.
My joy indeed is NOT in anybody... No ONE is is making me complete and whole.
When God challenged me to give up my personal emotional rights to Him, I responded.
I found joy.

As I responded, my whole burden was released from me!
I could do all I wanted to do!
I can jump and praise and dance and worship like I've never dared to over the past 2 months!!

A few things I brought back with me from the camp is:
1) Love isn't love till it hurts.
God loves us so so much that as a man, He suffered physical pain. As God, His heart broke that tore down the temple curtains. I didn't lost my first love for God.. But I lost God's first love for me. As I remember HOW He walked that Calvary, a little obedience from me is not too much to ask.

2) Brokenness.
To be broken before God is when I know that my heart has gone cold against His words and decide that nothing else matters but God alone.

3) Timing.
God to me is a Sprinter.. I always want to run away from God cause as humans, I'm frustrated why I have to obey His word and I complained that I'm shortchanged by God... And thus, I keep wanting to run ahead of God. And when I'm leading my life my own, I lost my true North Star.. I lost my direction TOTALLY. Everything in His own timing. Everything is permissible but not everything is beneficial.

4) Family of God.
The Family of God is a place where no grudges are held. Where grace is given freely though there may be struggles. I looked at Penny.. Despite being a VERY difficult sheep, she still perservere on and still love me to whatever capacity she has. I look at Chung.. Despite the problems I gave her, she still accept me. I look at my CG and know that though I'm not close to all of them but I know that if EVER I'm in trouble, they will definitely be there to help me out.
As Ps Jeff prayed for Ps Ben, he teared. The pain and the struggles that the leaders (be it pastors or ULs or SDLs, etc) went through just for the church, the sheeps under them, for the souls... and Leaders are learning everyday too.... They make mistakes too...

All in all, God has shown me truly what a unconditional love.

Vision

Vision..
Sight is a rather impactful tool that God has given us so generously.
Media is really an area that will help people visually see and believe things...

HopeVision, I believe, was birthed out Nov 2002.
From then till now, it's a year + old liao..

I joined this wonderful team last year July.
Involved in Filming and Editing.
Actually, when I first joined, I was REALLY skeptical about it.
I'm basically like the only gal in the technical team.
And I'm not exactly trained in this area.
Many of it started with just a want to learn a new skill.

To be involved in this team means seeing nothing turn into something.
It's like a house..
We receive the concept and then we conceptualize it and then we pen it down script and storyboard and from there, we film it and we edit it and birth it to a full complete product.

After this, each time I watch a movie, I give thanks to the hard work put behind it.

Life is really as such sometimes...
Unless we're in it, we wouldn't fully understand and realise the steps and process taken to do it.

Hmm....

Crossing my fingers for an interview now. :P

GrowTH

Went to see baby Matt Matt yesterday..
First thing I noticed was how strong his muscles has grown!!
He was actually lifting up his arm, stretching, yawning, moving, playing!
My goodness!!!

This is the first time, I actually witness a baby's muscle's growth..
God is really so amazing..
I just love staring at him...
Carrying him is the greatest joy really!
God is really so detailed.. the nose, the eyes, why is the nostril at where it is, the ears, etc..

Yesterday was just chatting with Pearly and her confinement nanny...
We just start rattling on and on on how Pearly and I became best friends..
*sigh*..
As I look through our birthday photos, her wedding photo, us now, I can't believe that she's actually a mummy already!
14 years back, we were still sharing a plate of rice & a bottle of Soya Bean.

Life is Beautiful
It is beautiful...

RaiN

Woke up and it was already raining.
I felt like the sky today...
Isn't it a beauty to cry?
It's like a dam that's overflowing with no stopping.
Just letting go...

First time, I saw a friend of mine cried his heart out.
10 years of friendship and it's only 2 days back that I saw him cry.
Someone who never believes in shedding tears.
Someone who ONLY believes in shedding blood.
Emotions.
It's really an amazing thing --- Emotions.
Why are emotions so hard to control?

*StRetchINg*

Later.

StucK

I can't seem to sit properly at work..
Very edgy and excited at the thought that I'm going to see my God Son again later..
Another 1/2 hour more to go...

Long day at work.. or is it the day seemed longer with deep thoughts in it?
*Sigh*
Terribly torn apart not knowing what to do..
Looking for a light in the tunnel.
Wanting the best of all the worlds.
Hoping for a hope.
Wishing for a wish...

TryiNG aGain for 1st Time

Been here 3 years back.. Now back again.
So much more improvements!!!