Time just wheeze me by after you came along! Now, I really need to purposefully find time to pen down your growth. So many things can happen in just one month. I was just thinking how I will need to hasten by speed to catch up with you OR perhaps, you could slow down so that I could catch up.
Your determination shows up even at this very young age of 8 months old. You enjoy standing more than sitting and lying down. Even better, you enjoy standing by yourself holding onto something. Last week when I was putting you to sleep, you were obviously not ready. I battled within myself two thoughts: Should I allow that to happen because that means dragging your bedtime by an hour. Or should I help you along and you know, enjoy some bonding time together. After all, how much time do we have, as working parents, to really play with our child? So I broke the rule for that night. Well, you didn't play that night. You learnt something new that night! You got yourself seated up in the cot and you grabbed your cot railings. Your legs kept you bouncing your bum up and down in the hope of standing upright. 10 minutes. You were at it for 10 minutes just bouncing up and bouncing down. After awhile, I prompted you by tapping on the top of the cot's bar (whatever's that called). You seem to understand what I was trying to tell you and amazingly placed your little hands on it and pulled yourself up! That joy that beamed from your eyes melted my heart. You little one has taught me what determination is all over again.That said, determination has a flipped side too. Often times I find myself having to control myself from shouting at you. Acutely mindful that hello, you are only 8 months old. There were times when you were determined to play and I was determined to get you to sleep. My only consolation is that perhaps you missed us so much in the day that you refused to sleep despite your constant rubbing of eyes.
Your display of affection is endearing especially when you wave your hands up and down frantically with joy on seeing daddy or mummy return from work. Oh yes! You also have learnt how to wave when we go off to work and when we return.
Oh yes, you have also grown very sticky to me. I have to be the one carrying you in the evenings to sleep. We tried very hard for you to stick to daddy more so that daddy can also put you to sleep but you just refused. (I must APPLAUD daddy for really putting in a lot and a lot of effort to spend time with you and be with you!) But we have also concluded that this phase in your life is a Mummy Phase. We kinda foresee that when mummy resign next year to take care of you (till you can go to childcare in Sept), this Mummy Phase will stay on for awhile more.
I am very thankful for having you as the hugest gift. In you, I see outward joy more than I see in daddy or mummy and I remember that when you were squirming and tumbling in mummy's womb, we prayed specifically that the joy of the Lord will be with you. Seeing you now, I know and really know that God hears us.
Keep that joy bubbly little one. Bring that joy to everyone you meet! Be a joy & find joy in meeting people too!
Love,
Mummy
