Essence of life

Reflection occurs when light bounces off an opaque object
Refraction occurs when light goes through a transparent material

When I was younger during my polytechnic days, if autobiography composition was still required for us, I often wished I was light.
I find light very intriguing.
Light could actually “bend” when it passes through a transparent material (water) and it could actually reflect back to me. It’s like it’s alive!
Do you remember those times when we watch movies of those trapped in an island? To get help, all of a sudden, they found a mirror and with that mirror, they try to capture the sun to REFLECT back to attain help.

As I am doing my reflection for 05, I ask myself “What have I not attained in Yr05 that I NEED help from the Lord in Yr06?”

After much thought, one thing that I am asking from the Lord for in Year 2006 is likened to that of Jabez.

1 Chronicles 4:10
“Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, "Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain." And God granted his request.”

What is the territory that I want to be enlarged in 06? Deep within me, I think I desire to be enlarged in the area of building relationships and a greater heart for people. With a heart, there should be no lack of motivation. Not that I have no relationships in 2005 but looking back, I think I could have done more to walk an extra mile. There were tears and even times of despair but I noticed, instead of overcoming it, sometimes, I might have gotten into the state of “Ok, I give up.”

As I reflect, God brought me back to my first few memory verses that I have memorized.

1 Thessalonians 5:16
“Be joyful always”

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. I pray for a larger heart and a greater capacity to love. The essence of life IS relationships.

I came back from a BBQ session with a surprised lamp that my dad bought for me. All of a sudden, my room is so cosy. Prior to this lamp, all the lights I have in my room is white light. This is the first warm light. Man... Even my dear Elmo looks so enticingly warm & friendly!!



And whilst packing my Christmas gifts, I noticed a trend.



Noticed the trend? It's ALL PINK!!! Let's see when I can actually use it... I believe it'll come in handy one day!!

Mel through and through...

Felt a little need for some “tests” to chill out so I did this test today from http://oneishy.com/personality. It’s a test based on the 4 personalities – Melocholic, Choleric, Sanguine & Phlegmatic. Those who have read Tim LaHyle’s book “Why do we act the way we do” should have known what are these personality types all about.

After 4 years, I’m still a Mel/Chol/Phleg.
I know for sure, somehow, I will never be a Sanguine.



One of the very obvious strength of a Sanguine is them being talkative, cheerful and bubbly. Those who know me, you’ll know I am not. :)

The test doesn’t seem to be a surprise to me after all.
I always feel that I am a mixture of a Mel, Chol & Phleg, which sometimes, I felt that I am such a rojak. My Mel will see me being oversensitive at times and sometimes, I can get a little too rash AND frank. However, the Phleg side of me will help me control my emotions and rationalize things. Sometimes, when I get too laid-back, my Chol will then tell me that it’s time to get things going and get things done.

We each have our unique personality – there’s no doubt. However, whatever personality I have, I have also learnt over the years, never to be controlled by it and use it as an excuse like “Ya what… I am a Mel thus I get moody easily.” But rather, I have learnt that it’s even wiser to control our emotions and be led by the Word of God.

Frontline

Drifting in and out of sleep last night unsure of why I can’t get to sleep. For sure, I remember I did say an “amen” before I sleep but guess what? I woke up at 3:39am feeling tired yet awake. I felt as though as I didn’t sleep a wink. Perhaps the hot tea & bubble tea I had with a friend who came over took effect. Or perhaps, I was too excited over the chat on MSN about birth of my friend’s baby. Or perhaps, I was too excited after I receive news on my research topic. Perhaps, perhaps and more perhaps. I drifted back to sleep awhile later at 4:24am and was woken up abruptly by my alarm clock.

Lately, I read in this Magazine where it speaks about putting oneself into another shoes. Today, my colleague and I were talking about an email telling us how to improve ourselves as frontline staffs. Many times, as a consumer to a shop, when I am angry with a sales assistant, I will often tell myself “its ok. She had a long day serving customers. Let’s not scold her.” I will just keep quiet and leave the shop. However, just last week, I had a bad encounter with a staff at a jewelry shop and he got me so mad that I “sort of” told him off as politely as I could about my displeasure.

That’s the difference. Now when I am in the frontline, I understand how feedback could do us help. Yet on the other hand, I get irritated when my staff or even I get scolded straight front without even trying to understand the situation. Many times, I will vent out words like “Can’t they just put themselves in my shoes?”

I realized over the years, it’s just too difficult to put oneself in another shoes without grace and mercy. We are usually quick to point out faults or anything that doesn’t flow in line with our own agenda.

Moving ON!

Literally in a blink of an eye and 2005 will be over. The mad rush of Christmas is just over. It seemed as if it was just yesterday that we met up for discussion for the Christmas decorations but it is already past a month or two? This year Christmas has been the most meaningful one thus far.

Christmas has always given me a feeling of warmth and love. Not overlooking that Christmas IS a time where we celebrate Jesus’ birthday. Whenever people ask me which holiday you loved most, I will always answer – Christmas whether or not I am a believer of Christ. It’s always a homecoming season, a celebration, a warm dinner, hugs & kisses and even smses from friends from distant land.

This year, I am also glad that I summoned all my courage to invite my friend to come for the service on Sunday. I was real glad that she enjoyed the service especially the drama. Kudos to the drama team, director and all! I shan’t write too much on the Christmas services. Tiger and many others have written about it. :) But one thing I must say is this. I was SO happy on Sunday! Cause I had the time of my life taking care (or is it playing?) of Nic! *sigh*... I asked Tiger how old is he and he told me that he's not much older than Nic. *I WONDER*!!!



Anyway, yesterday we had a time of thanksgiving and affirmation for our CG at Beng’s place. First thing we did when we arrive was to rush to the Christmas tree, put our presents and started our chat. We had potluck and MAN! I forgot to take photos of all the wonderful food we’ve cooked! We chatted, joked and laughed lots. For a moment, I just sat back in quietness and enjoyed the conversation that’s going on. For THAT moment, I really wished I had my video cam. I was imagining God being that invisible guest at our table looking at us, enjoying our conversation & laughing along with us.

When it come to the affirmation time, Beng had a HARDEST time of his life (I think). Being the first GUY to share, his words were VERY carefully monitored by the sisters in the CG. E.g. “Most of the time, she’s very nice.” For this a reply will storm out from us – “MOST only? Are you sure MOST?” Poor Beng… But he did the guys a favor by “setting” a standard I guess… Hee… And brother, you are GREAT! =) I'll post some pictures when I got hold of it... ;)

Well, at the end of it all, I must say, close or distant, long or short time spent, CG has been such a great part of my life. I love them all and they have been part of my learning curve. I can’t imagine how lonely I would be if not for the fellowship of the brothers and sisters in the church.

I have this habit at year-end. Every year-end, I will flip through my pages of my journal and then I will look through my goals. After that, I will set new goals. Now, I am putting on my thinking cap and am waiting in anticipation of the New Year. Lots of changes, lots of excitement. LOTS of learning!

Family

Home is the theme to the message of the Christmas message. Looking back, this year’s Christmas has been very meaningful to me. It’s been a long time that I have spent time at home FRUITFULLY.

To begin with, I took leave yesterday so that I can spend my entire day completing my gifts. However, my personal agenda didn’t come true because I spent the entire day helping my parents & sister with their stuffs. Got the time to actually chat with them too.

The day ended off with a scrumptious dinner together with my sis’ boyfriend and my ex-housemate from Brisbane. Even my vain dog, Sparkle, joined in the fun with his party hat that was made by my dad. ;) After a full dinner, we sat to watch whatever that’s on the TV then we went on to open up our gifts. I was sure glad to see the “glowing happiness” on my dad’s and mum’s face yesterday. It’s not the gift that matters to them but all of us being at home to spend time with them.



Oh… Forgot to mention that Christmas is my sister’s birthday too. :)

Family. Indeed it WARMS my heart to hear the word family.

I took nearly 2 weeks to prepare my heart to tell my dad about my resignation (for my studies) for fear that he will be angry. However, I was SO surprised that he took it so well that he even assured me that it's ok. Assured me that I don't have to give them (parents) money. Assured me that I don't have to help out in some financial loans. At the same time, my sister (who was against my studies) also slowly supported me and even assured me that she can still support financially. Just concentrate on my studies.

That's family.

Starry Starry Night

Now, it’s time to share a little of our Christmas “Starry Starry Night” event last Saturday. Heee… Gonna be a long blog cause I am a little “lor soh” today. I need to take a brain-break from my own stuffs and do some.

That Saturday was a mad rush for me. Something cropped up at work that required my attention. Thereafter, I grabbed a cab down to YWCA. It really makes me boil that whenever I need a cab, there’s nowhere in sight. But when I don’t need, it’s everywhere. The cab driver was real friendly and was concern for me cause I have to pay ERP. Well, THANK God, I saved my dollar cause I don’t have to go through the ERP gantry. But it was quite costly leh! A whopping $16 just to get to town from the East. I made sure I took a train home no matter how tired I am.

I reached there a little late but managed to catch James, my co-emcee, to practice our script. After awhile, we were interrupted by an office call on my side. After which, we practiced our individual CG performance. It was a long while later that we remember we forgot we were halfway through the script. I must say, though, even without the script, there was the “mo qi”. (But sometimes, we were both stuck for words!) I can’t say it’s the best I have emcee-d but it was the one that I enjoyed the most! I remember the first time I emcee-d, I was wearing a red cheongsum. Felt like a waitress.



Moving on, Guessie went first on “stage” (cause there’s no stage) with 2 songs. “It’s a long Journey” by Corrine May and “If we hold on together”. After which, we introduced Tze Wei & his team to lead us into a time of games. I don’t really know what’s the game all about cause all I did was to rest by the side and chatted with James while the others enjoyed.



Starry Starry night is about “Seeking Talents through performances”. We had 6 items by 3 groups but there were awards to ALL groups. Basically, ALL are stars and talents.

My group’s mime went first. Everyone was busy acting, moving the props, making sure all props are up and I was at the “backstage” (which is just made up of a whiteboard) switching on and off the lights, do a few phone ring tones, and ring the alarm clock. It was an AMUSING mime I must say! There were a few props missing here and there but after the whole thing, I had SO much fun! Rather, WE had so much fun. What I loved most you ask? I think I love the whole mime. (Not because it was written by me) But I remember when I wrote the script, I was overwhelmed with all the various roles that I have to juggle in my life. A daughter, a worker, a friend, a colleague and what have you. Many times, we search for “approval” and “love” but many a times, we forgot that we always “want” but we didn’t give. Things are there. It’s just a matter of perception, a matter of attitude towards things.

Tze Wei’s group did a “Do Re Mi Fa So La Ti Do” musical glass performance. Man!!! Pamela has such sharp ears. You know? It’s that type where you pour water into a glass to obtain a musical note. They even managed to do the music to the song “starry starry night”. After that they acted out a story on a “Travelling Star” (Ok… The name was given by me.) It’s about how this star brings “luck” to its owner. Great acting from all I must say!

The Josh’s group did a drama on 4 angels wondering what gift to give to the Lord Jesus Christ. Every angel has a gift to give except one little angel . In the end, she gave her heart. Impressed! Another item that the group did was the puppet show. I love the song but wished there were more actions to it. Heee…. :)

Yeah… I forgot ONE more item and that’s my group’s dance item. In all honesty, I can’t tell my left leg from my right leg that day. SUDDENLY, I forgot my dance steps! Perhaps one sneeze too much. Too tired. I missed a few steps but overall, I enjoyed the dance.

In the end, we were awarded “The most coordinated” prize for the dance (I wonder why) and our mime was awarded the 2nd prize. I love what my CL said. She said that the prize is ours. She thanked us for the hard work that was put in and that she really appreciates us for making it happened. I truly know what she means. It’s not about the scriptwriter. Neither is it about the music or the voice behind it. It’s not about the actors and how well everything runs. It’s not about the prize either. It’s really about teams working together. Teamwork. I truly feel that if one of us didn’t put our heart into the mime or even the dance, none of it could have happened. Teamwork. Simple word with a GREAT meaning behind it.

Speaking of teamwork, I have spoken so much about emcee-ing, the games and the items performed. Let me now focus on the “behind-the-scenes” scenario.

Lots of effort has been put in by Lay Hong and her team. When I reached YWCA, I was awed by the deco done by them. It REALLY stands out from the other rooms. I guess if I am a visitor, I would really be very touched. By the time I reached there, “carpets” and rugs has already been laid on the already-carpeted floor with cushions all over. I feel like I am going home. :) What I really like was the silver and gold dangling stars that were hung from the diffusers. Not forgetting a lovely tree with various forms of balls loaned by my friend. I am always a “supporter” of decoration. It brings out anything you wanna bring out. It is the first stop that will capture the heart of people. (Well, at least, that’s what I feel)

Then, there is Eugene behind a pillar playing music on the CD player. How could Christmas be without Christmas Carols??? Hee… I have been brought up in a family where my parents love music. When young, I watch old musical movies, play records, piano, etc. And I remember my house will always be filled with music. If not for my awful piano playing, there’s always the record player (forgot the name of it). So I always feel that it’s a GREAT job putting music. It creates THE atmosphere!

I don’t wanna forget the staff who has rendered so much so much help! We sort of miscalculated the time and dinner was served a little too late. James & I decided then to get the banquet manager, if that’s his appointment, to serve earlier. Man! They REALLY work fast! And without complain a smile and a VERY good service. I truly appreciate them!



Teamwork. Yup! Everyone plays a part! Cliché but true. *wink*





Nighty night…

Beyond Words

Today, I wrapped many boxes of chocolates and gave them out to the co-tenants and my staff at my clinic.
Today is also the day that my colleague came back to the clinic taking a break from her project at another clinic.
I was very much comforted by her presence cause I miss her so much.

I am real glad that she's back today cause she helped me with the closing of the clinic whilst I rushed west for an interview with a Social Service agency.
I would believe that this is the FIRST time I am going for an interview without any certs and I didn't bother to dress up in suits and heels. THANKFULLY!

When I arrived there, I was pleasantly surprised to see the place in one of my fav colour - ORANGE!
Well... I like it cause it's bright and cheerful!
However, I was appalled by the attitude given to me by my interviewer. At a certain point of time, I really did wanted to just give up and say "Bye". Felt a little demoralised I must say. However, I am real thankful that he got in another person who was SO much nicer. SO much more people-oriented I must say. Very gentle, very kind. He was the one who directed me to my interviewer.

Blah blah blah goes the interview but it was a pretty casual setting and I find myself engaging in a chat more than an interview.

I shan't go into details of the interview.
All I know is - Out of 24 hours in a day, this 30mins interview cause my brains juice to RUSH!

Oh ya!

To DARLing, Esta, Junming, Yanz, my blood test report came out well.. :)
Some mild vascular defect. But no big deal a cause to worry so THANKS for you prayers!

Cheers!

In God I trust

Today I had a nightmare. I dreamt that my family and I were clinging on to our lives on the wing of an airplane. (I presume it was a real small airplane cause I could see my mum & sis on the right wing when I was with my dad hanging onto the left wing)The setting was in the night and the wind was very strong. Clouds were above me cause I could feel the pitter-patter of the rain. As I looked down, I see small little houses.

Suddenly, I heard a voice asking me LET GO and I was like “HUH?!”. Somehow, I managed to convince with shouts and screams to my dad, mum and sis to let go too. When I let go, I gripped my dad’s hands real tight while we were trying to reach out for my mum & sis. (Think I am doing some sky diving thing here) But I remember I saw a picture of a sea. THEN I start to question “How can it be sea when I saw LOTS of houses?”. And I furiously prayed in the spirit.

Right. And I woke up. I don’t know if I got saved. I don’t know if I survived. I only know I relied on that voice that asked me to let go.

I woke up with a BAD headache.

Headache got worse when I realised that my practicum starts in January 9th. And due dates March 29th. In all logic, I cannot imagine HOW I am going to complete my 400 hours. Work OT also not enough. Worst of all, I realised now that though I have gotten my bonus, I cannot resign till Jan 1st else I have to pay my company back and I sort of need my bonus to pay fees.

Ah well, just when I thought I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, I realised that very much like my dream, I have to exercise faith in the One who has brought me through so much ordeals already. When all logic fails me, God is bigger than my logic. What is one more ordeal to Him? Everyday when I head to town, I will always see this sign after Eunos station by this company called Index Cool. It says “In God we trust”. I am always comforted when I see it.

In God I trust.

1 Peter 2:9

I was doing a little quiet time in my office this afternoon through the Breakthrough booklet. This morning had a real real bad encounter with a few patients and I know that I simply need time alone during my lunchtime.
Interestingly, today’s prayer point is from 1 Peter 2:9. It hit a chord in my heart, as this was the verse that was prophesized over me by one of the CL in my Unit.

I remember this verse impacted me greatly then. “For you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.” Back then, I was feeling a little skeptical. You know, humans being humans are always cynical! And I was feeling a little like a cynic! Well, this verse came strongly and was reminded greatly that no matter where I run, God will always call me back. And when God call me back to Him, I belong to Him. He is the one who called me out of darkness and no longer am I bonded to anything cause I live in the light now.

Today, I pray that one day, I may be the vessel, the instrument, a middle person, to lead someone out of their darkness into His wonderful light.

*yawn* As the day is ending and am awaiting for my clinic to be closed, I can’t help but savor the quietness of this clinic.
Feeling the buzzing sound around the ear cause of the silence suddenly seem to be an enjoyment...!
Can’t help but feel myself blending into this “rat race”. Everywhere is fast paced. Even patients are demanding for faster & efficient service. Fast & Efficient are the KEY words that I, in this rat race, have to take note of.

Was just sharing with a friend of mine that lately, even during days when I am home, I am not resting. I am catching up with things that are left undone due to things that have been taking over its priority. Not sure if you know what I’m talking about here…

Looking your way!

During those days when I was in the polytechnic, my faculty was situated at a “hilltop”. Sometimes, I will walk up the slope through the side gate. And sometimes, I will walk through the main gate up a less gradient slope, pass the other faculties like Business, Accountancy.
Getting to school was a real hectic one I remember. When I was staying at my old place, I have to walk 15mins to the bus stop. Then walk another about 10mins up the slope to my tutorial room or lecture theatres.

8am lesson is my MOST dreaded lesson because I will have to plan backwards and minus away the travelling time, I have to still wake up at 630am! So if I do wake up at 630am, I am only left with 15mins to bath, comb hair, look good and then get out of my house.

What really left my mouth gapping is when I reached school and I see gals from other faculties already dressed to the nines with make up…
I usually find it quite amusing cause I hardly even have the time to brush my hair lest talk about putting on make up.
My guy friends will usually like to go through Route 2 cause got pretty gals to bowl over. And they will always ask me “Sigh… You ah! Must learn like them la!”
I gave them my dagger stare and said “I am good already!” though I was just clad in berms and T-shirt.

I guess keeping my face free from make up has been part of me already.
No one has really seen me with make up unless they go for weddings together with me. Sometimes, I find myself looking like a “painted cat” when I do put on make up. Haha!!!

I was actually reading the news from ChannelNewsAsia this afternoon and saw this article that got me go “hmmmm….”
“Plastic surgeons see 20% more patients during festive seasons”
I feel that lately, looking good has become quite an in-thing.
There are shows on being slim, making over, looking good.
Sometimes, I wonder – Isn’t it sad that in reality, there are many who feel inferior when they are with the “perfect” look.
But again, what is a perfect look?

Meet ups....!

December = Christmas = End of Year = Reflections = Evaluation = Planning = Bonus = Birthdays = Gifts = Time Packed!
Usually by end of Nov, I would perhaps have my list of presents ready.
However, for this year, it’s a little bit different.
The list is not yet even halfway ready!
My schedule for this year seemed to be “packier” than last year or even year before last.

The month of November and December has seen me packed with training and meetings at work.
After being trained, I have to come back to my clinic to train the rest.
I feel quite ding-donging. Sometimes, I don’t even remember whether am I on duty at clinic or supposed to be in another clinic for training!

At the same time, end of the year is usually THE time for meet ups – the ONCE a year type of meet ups!
Over the past couple of weeks, I have been meeting my old friends from Poly, Uni & Hope Brisbane.
Can you imagine the “hoo-ha” when we met up?
Minus away the hugs (Cause primarily, we Asians are shy), questions were thrown all over the floor!

The meet up with my Polytechnic friends is like a session of “Mummies & Daddies” catch up.
My friend wanted to bring along his kiddo and that got me SO excited!
However the bad news is she can’t come. Well, next time!
Though the kiddo didn’t come, it doesn’t mean we don’t have “Parents” talk!
We talked about the Education system, OUR growing up years, Media impacting lives, Diapers, etc.
I simply can’t contribute much about the diapers part since the ONLY hands on I had was 2 weeks back! My FIRST time changing a diaper & it’s the VERY advanced PULL up type so how difficult can it be?

Just the weekend that just passed, I met up my Brisbane friends at Parkway Parade.
Poor Edward who came along was bullied by 5-sharp-tongued gals!
We questioned him till he blushed! Thankfully, he is very good-natured!
It is amazing how time & NS can change a person. One year ago, he looked so boyish. One year later, we were awed by his handsome, hard & well-defined face.
We are still the crazy gang. Though the memory of Brisbane is slowly fading, the friendship that we share still goes on strong. Nothing changed.
We have a fun time exchanging presents and opening it up.

I shared with mummy about how time really flies.
When I was a kid about 3-5yrs of age, I remember my mum will always bring me & sister to dinners/lunches to meet her friends.
I felt at this moment, it’s NOW our generation to bring OUR kids (not that I have) to meet our friends!
Gosh… Time flies!

I took a break and went to JB yesterday. Sort of needed to be out of Singapore, have a good time with my friend and THOUGHT I could do some shopping for myself.
After seeing the stuffs, I still can’t bear to part with my cash.
I don’t wish for the time to come when I am jobless (IF I am jobless) next year then realized that “Aiya! I shouldn’t have bought this & that!”
Ok… Some say I am a worrier.
Some say I am a planner.
Whichever can be true…! Haha!! I am quite a little of BOTH!
Neber mind! There will be NEXT YEAR! Haha!!!!

Now, I can’t wait for next Sat’s Unit event. Seeing a lot of our friends saying Yes to our invitation. And with the Christmas deco up in church already, I am already feeling the Christmas mood!
Oh… Speaking of that, it’s time to put MY Christmas tree out in my living room!
Anyway, I have yet prepared my Emcee speech.
I REALLY hope that this time, I won’t blush again.
And I really hope that it will be more successful than 3 years back!
Haha!!!
I must say, looking back, I have grown a TINY WITSY WEENY bit braver, stronger and calmer in respect to speaking in crowds.

That’s my life the last couple of weeks in a NUTSHELL!

Below are a few favourite photos I’ve grown to love over the weeks.


This star has captured my heart totally! I find myself looking forward to seeing him weekly. Amazing things how kids can capture anybody’s heart.



This is the LONG awaited photos from last year’s meet up. All of them are my churchmates from Brisbane.
Now, am waiting for this year’s photo. Hmm… I wonder do I have to wait till next year!

Bleeding Test & 8 tubes of blood

I had 8 tubes of blood drawn and a Bleeding test done yesterday.
Interestingly, when the blood was drawn from me, it was in an open-concept room.
When I went in for the bleeding test, it was in a VERY secretive room.
For a moment, I felt trapped with this pretty lady sitting in front of me.
Then of all things to tell a patient, she told me "Oh... This is going to be more painful than that." (pointing to my left arm)
YIKES!
I sort of gave out a weak shriek and told her my arm is in her hands... Do what she wants.

Anyway, from my internet research, the method that was executed on me was called The Ivy Method.
She first strapped the blood pressure cuff on my upper arm and added some pressure.
Then she used a "staple" like thingy to cut a slit on the underside of my arm.
The minute she slit me, she clicked the stop watch and she took out a big round filter.
This filter is suppose to draw my blood every 30seconds.
Hum... Internet research says normal clotting time is 5mins.
I think mine took slightly a tiny itsy bitsy weeny bit longer.

Actually, each time I take my jabs, I can't help but think - This is only a small hole. What about that nail that drove through the hands and feet of Jesus.
As I saw the blood flow, I have several thoughts.
1) Quick stop flowing!
2) Wah... my blood so red one ah?
3) This blood is indeed much lesser than if it was pierced with a nail. OuCh!

Well... Results will be out in 3 weeks time!

And till then, I am 8 tubes of blood short, 1 extra hole in my bruised left arm and 1 slit on my right arm.

And OH! Did I mentioned?

I was so afraid that I'll faint that I prepared myself with a packet of Chocolate Milk...! :)

Yum yum!!!!

Slow to Anger and Abounding in love

Sinus infection again today. Nose blocked and ears blocked.
My colleagues and I are all taking turns to be sick.
Last week was both my colleagues. This week is me.

Guess how did I spend my time?
I watched a VCD – Jonah: A Vegetales Movie.

Well, over the past few days, I was feeling rather discouraged but this movie perked me up lots.
One part of the show that encouraged me lots is this part where is says “Compassion is about helping people when they are in need. Mercy is when you give someone a chance even when they didn’t deserve it. Both compassion and mercy comes in hand-in-hand but you can’t have mercy without compassion.”

The story of Jonah is not only about listening to God or about turning back to God or even about the whale but it’s a great story of grace and mercy.
After the show, I questioned myself – How gracious and merciful can I be?
God reminded me not to be self-centered.
There’s always hope.

Again, I pray, dear Lord, may you teach me how to be slow to anger and be abounding in love and compassion.

We plant but God grows

Lately, I have been taught AGAIN that when all things through human fail, God is there.

Sometimes, I question - How can I help? What can I do? What SHOULD I do? What else can be done?
I can get very exasperated and sometimes frustrated and at a loss.
Yet as we plant a seed, we sow, we water but God grows it.
Today through the song "Heart of Worship", I am reminded by what my CL always share with me...
She always say "You know, no matter how much I can tell you guys, only one word from God and your life can be changed."

So, no matter what situation I am in, I want to learn to give thanks and be joyful no matter what.
Learning learning learning.... :)

Long Term

Have I mentioned about my trip to my hairstylist?
I have no idea actually my hairstylist changed my hairstyle.
I just thought “Well… it’s just shorter than most normal gals would don on themselves.”
But many extreme comments were made on my new hairstyle.
Too short they say. *shrug* Don’t really bother me cause I am enjoying the coolness on my head!

My visit to the saloon has been made possible by a mistake that my sister has given me.
I was feeling real hot and the back of my hair was growing to nearly touching my shoulder.
I badly needed a trim yet I thought, might as well let my sister do it since she did such a good job on my two dogs.

Well… You guys would have guess.
It didn’t turn out as well as it should be.
Perhaps, my expectations were too high.
Thus, I gladly bring myself to the saloon giving myself the full excuse of being seated at the salon chair and being served!

I enjoy every trip I make to the salon and I am one person who likes to stick to the same stylist.
Of course, every now and then, I will visit other salons thanks to vouchers, etc.
As I was perched up high, I really enjoyed the head massage that was given to me and I was served with tea and magazines.

I was chatting with my stylist and we both realized that we have known each other for 10 years and I have been there to cut my hair for 10 years!
Then we both realized how we both have aged.
He even mentioned that he close his eyes also know how to cut my hair!
Thinking back, he was the one who first dared me to cut my hair short.
And now, he’s telling me to keep it long.

Anyway, for that 10 years, I got 10% discount!
Haha… that was a joke.
He has been giving me discount since a few years back…

The perks of being a long term customer.

The joy of being pampered

It's rare that I get pampered.
Today, I am very pampered. Heee...

I took a PM off to have my medical appointment at SGH.
Chit Chat with 2 doctors. First the MO then the Consultant.
This all started with me having prolonged bleeding.
Rather, if I have a cut, it takes a long time to clot.

So, the consultant revealed a "truth" in my life!
I am VERY elastic!
He said "Sometimes, all blood test may reveal a positive result meaning you are fine. Then this could mean that maybe your blood doesn't coagulate well. So it's like very elastic."
Next, he took hold of my hand, bring my thumb to my wrist area.
Easy does it man... With no pain.
Then he bend my thumb backwards, stretched me wide from one hand to another hand and measure the distance, split my third and second finger.

Then told me I may be "suffering" from "MILD Marfun disease" (Dunno how to spell).
Some elasticity or something like that.
Suddenly, I feel that "Hey! Perhaps I can change my career to be an acrobat!!"
Well... Honestly, ya... It's something that affect the tissues and heart.
But doc say my heart is good.
Just that I am very "elastic".

Oh ya... Before I forget the title of my blog today.

I am pampered.

My friend who was nearby SGH came to pick me up and fetched me to AMK hospital to visit my another friend.
Then I stayed there for about another 1.5 hrs then came to pick me up for dinner...
Fantastic dinner!!! Char Siew Rice and a BIG bowl of "Salted Veg soup".
Then after dinner fetched me home.
Not forgetting, my presents from him is one big packet of white coffee, 10 Ang Ku Kuehs and 3 packets of chestnuts.

I felt like a princess all of a sudden. Machiam not used to it.
But it feels really good to catch up with him once in a while.
But must say, each time I meet up, he will bug me to get married fast.
He ah... Like grandfather tell stories... But he is far fetched from being my grandpa...
He's only 50+!
Always tell him to save his worries for all of his children!

You know?
Each time I meet up with him, I felt that being friends with my parents is NOT impossible!
=)

Amen = Yes I agree! May it be so!

One thing I have learnt over the past few weeks is to P.U.S.H.
Pray Until Something Happen.

To keep our love for God burning has to be intentional on our side.
We have to keep praying and we have to keep believing.

I have many prayers and one of my prayer is for my relationship with my sister to be closer.
Initially, my prayers were just "half bucket".
Sort of like "Well, God, if you can then improve it, then you do something about it."
Then it turned into "Yes God, I think I can trust that you can work miracles.".
Then I thought I was rebuked by God "Oh you of little faith! What you mean by all your "ifs" and "think"?"

With all that has happened in my life and I see the grace and mercy of God over my life, I can't help but know that God is Lord.

My prayers soon became "Oh God!!! I am sure you can and you will! In your timing God, you will work things out! Amen!"
I learned that we have to seal our prayers in faith.
Amen = Yes I agree! May it be so!
God will definitely deliver our prayers. In His Time!

Lately, I see my relationship with my sister improving tremendously.
Even her smses to me are like that of a friend to a friend.
I truly give thanks for only God can soften hearts.

2 good news today!
A visitor in my CG gave her life to Christ & a P2 boy in HopeKids accepted Christ too!
God is good.

Amen? *smile*

Lots of thoughts and don’t know what to write

What to blog?
This week has been such a mental strain to me.
Driving to and fro Choa Chu Kang and Simei.
From East to NorthWest.

My “por por” (granny) passed away on Tuesday and I had been busy with the wake, etc.
Hmmmm…
Lots of thoughts and don’t know what to write.

But guess what?
A friend of mine popped by my place to say hi today.
And the minute I sat down, my friend’s ears was tortured by me!
I talked and talked and talked AND talked non-stop…
Until when I stop and then I realized that I have talked too much.
I said, “Hmm… Sorry ah!! I seem to talk non-stop!”
His reply was “Ya la! So unusual of you!” and giggled…

There's lots of questions that were generated in my little head over the past few days that I JUST have to ask.
And so... I talked lots. :)

After which, I went to visit my good friend.
I am so sadden to see his state.
He was down with a stroke in his brain and yeah... His left half is sort of immobile.
He was screaming and shouting the first few days but least, today when I see him, he's much more calm.

After I left, he send me a sms "Thanks sis for coming to visit me. Thanks for not giving up on me after so many years."
That brought a tear to me.

Okie dok...
Time to rest.
I'm bushed.......

Been a long time...

Been quite a long time that I have blogged and what have I been doing?
Been doing lots of self reflection and thought, it's time to take a "Blog-break".

Lots have been happening in my life since Paradize Live which was on 2nd Nov.
Cause of the 2 holidays on 1st and 3rd, I managed to spend time at home PLUS managed to spend time with God.
Been such a long time that I had a chit-chat session that after some time, I realised how much I have "ignored" that small voice.

Actually, I wanted to give Paradize Live concert a miss but the good got the better out of it.
And boy... Am I glad to be there! The pastor of that church delivered a powerful testimony.
He shared about his life that was going downwards TILL he start to PRAISE God despite all circumstances.
When he started to praise God, it was when the miracle started!
The miracle didn't start when his life start turning for the better but it started when he started praising God.

And from Yanz blog and my friends who attended the workshop the next day, the pastor shared about how important it is for us to remain positive all the time and always say Yes to God even though you want so much to say No.

Yes... Correct.
What did I learn?
I learn to step out in faith and share about something personal that has been bothering me big time to my dear shepherd.
I confess... It was real scary having to share something personal but then, I have also come to understand that breakthroughs and healing come from the time we decide to say Yes to God and No to ourselves.

And the prayer meet last Friday? It brought me even closer to God...
I believe many will feel the way I feel.
I was especially ministered when there was a blackout.
No one panicked.
Instead, voices were raised and hands were outstretched.
It's amazing, real amazing.
I felt God telling me "San, you are so important to me. I know you individually and I know you. I know your struggle and I know you. And I love you. And you know? I am walking together with you."
That assurance is like "Woah!"

Think more importantly now is to be consistent in my walk with God and always keep His joy in me.

God is good... that's all I can say.

Love

Love is something that many tend to overlook and take for granted. Something that is intangible and it can’t be purchased. Many longed for it but many just don’t know they are longing for it.

In the busy-ness of life, in the many roles that an individual has to play be it a daughter/son, worker, colleague, husband/wife, student, we sometimes neglect things that are closest to us.

Just what is Love?
When you are crying, a gentle tissue is love.
When you are tired, a hug is love.
When you are sad, a listening ear is love.
When you are happy, a smile is love.
Actually, love is hard to fathom.
Small actions can touch our heart. Love or not, depends on our attitude towards how we look at it.

Am I falling in love?
No la...
The above is what my CG Christmas mime will be based on.
Of late, I am very "inspired" by this thing called Love. Also must give thanks to my friend who helped me!
I was stuck... Cause I had this idea about people looking for "Something" and I told my friend... I'm just looking for this "Something".
And he said... "The first thing that came to mind is Love."
I was like "AIYO! Why didn't I think of it!"

This script is still lack of the little details... So will be filling it in with the help of everybody else in my CG.

Looking forward to the first rehearsal this Sat....

So glad for my CG who's SO supportive!
So supportive that I have my main roles allocated!

All righty... It's time to practice guitar.

Nighty nights!

Pitter Patter

Pitter patter pitter patter...
This morning, I had a whiff of the Brisbane air again.
It was a rainy morning and I hear the sun-catcher bell chiming away.
It sounds and smell just like my room in Brisbane.

It was a wonderful morning to wake up to after a nightmare!!
Guess what?
I dreamt that someone come and tell me that I should leave the children's ministry for dunno what reason.
Oh MY goodness... I remember I was so upset in my dream.
I woke up to my alarm clock and quickly thank God that it's just a dream and quickly get dressed for church!

All clean

All cleaned!
So clean that my sister refused to leave my bed.

Hmm... While packing my room, I cleaned up my bags which I found some packets of tissue, some sweets and some coins.
While packing my drawers, I found $16 and lots of Oz coins!! *yippie* That's like sufficient for alot of meals.
At the same time, I found my stationeries which I thought I had lost.
When I was packing my books, I found SO many books which made me want to re-read all my books again.
I didn't realized I've so much accessories! Ranging from belts to earrings to necklaces to brooches. Of course, some are made by myself and couldn't bear to sell.

Little things that made me go "Wow!"
Honestly, I love this holiday.
Little perks to perk myself up!

Oh ya... There's one more area which I have yet packed - My photos.
That's an area which I refuse to pack since 3 years ago.
Well... Let's see when's the next holiday and when will I buy my photo albums.

Jaané...

Perks!

My holiday has been very fulfilling…
Think my parents gained most from it.

I’ve been packing my room since Sunday. Packing is not over yet.
No… Not cause my room is very messy. But because I’m a slow packer. I like to pack my things slowly and steadily.
I enjoy holidays cause it gives me a great opportunity to change a little of my room layout.
Gives me great excitement and joy.
Sometimes, along the way while packing, I will surprise myself with things that I found that I thought I didn’t have.

Thanks to my trip to Ikea last Friday, I got myself a storage box for my CD bags.
Emptied out the current CD box and in place, house all my handicraft stuffs.
Finally I got a “room” for them! Poor them… They have been chucked from one drawer to another. From one empty space to another.
Like what my friend always say, your room is an organized mess! Your handiwork all over the drawers but you still know where they are.

Changed my bedsheets and curtains.
Red curtains and brown sheets and green comforter.
My Hippo and Elmo blended in real well.
But my friend asked “Why you so fast into the Christmas mood liao?”
Hee… I didn’t realized!
But oh man… The bedsheets were SO comfy!!! 220 threadcount DOES has its effects!
I’ve resolute to wait for the next sale to buy another colour.
The red curtains made my room look so “Lomantic” all of a sudden…
But mummy has her own opinion!! “Aiyo! So hot!”



In the midst of these holidays, I also made a few trips to the hospital to visit my granny who fell into the state of unconsciousness.
When I was there and saw her frail body, I was so struck guilty cause I have been a very bad granddaughter.
I didn’t pay much of a visit to them always giving an excuse that I am busy.
When I look at her, I have to keep fighting back my tears cause I don’t wanna my parents to see.
Memories of those younger days came flooding back.
How my granny will fry chicken wings for me and my sister whenever we visit her last time cause she knows it’s our favourite.
She will ALWAYS tease me for looking like a little Indian gal cause I was SO tanned from all the swimming and I will always play around with her.
As I look at her, I see my deep weakness.
Never appreciating what I have till it’s nearly gone or gone.

Lately, also reminded by my shepherd that I am not as “loving” as I used to.
Gets edgy easily lately and temper flaring everywhere too.
Actually… Even before I was reminded by my shepherd, I think God visited me already.
Pr 29:11 strike my heart saying “A fool gives full vent to anger, but a wise man keep himself under control.”
*sigh* Looking at myself, it’s really *tsk tsk tsk*…
I have given in to anger so many times and after flaring, I feel regretful.
No wonder the bible says, those who gives full vent to anger is a fool.
Sometimes, I feel like a fool.

Well… It was a timely reminder indeed and is real glad for shepherds and leaders to keep me in check once in a while.
Of course, initially, when I heard it, I was “angry” BUT giving it much thought, I asked myself – How can I be angry to someone who love me so much to dare to tell me my flaws?
No wonder leaderships are not appointed by man but by God.

I took the holidays while packing my room in quietness to evaluate myself also.
It’s amazing what God can reveal to me.

Camps

Lately, I have been itching greatly for a holiday!
Perhaps it's this adventurous side of me that I really like to go to another country to explore.
If not explore, at least to see see look look.
Gives me a great feeling to step into the airport and board that lovely plane.

Well... I started to reminisce my last holiday as I look through my photos...
Okie.. I didn't reminisce my holiday in Thailand but the one before that...
The church camp.

Remembering the church camp just brings back memories.
I remember how my leader always urge us to go for camps.
Cause it's in camps that we will see each other nearly 24/7 and sleep with each other, eat and study with each other.
Praise and worship together.
Laugh and cry together.

It was an amazing holiday.
Relationships got closer and am already looking forward to next year's!

Fa-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la... 'Tis d Season to be Jolly!

Have I mentioned what Christmas will be like for me this year?
We’re going to have a Christmas party at YWCA Fort Canning Lodge!
Who’s the we?
“We” is a combination of 3 CGs. 1 CG from 3 different units.
Yesterday, we had our first meet up.
A definite combination of skills and talents.
A wonderful time of getting to know each other, fixing names to faces and coming together in games, P&W, chatting & even learning from one another.

On my way home in Bus 174, I passed by Orchard Road and I got to see the busy-ness of that stretch of road.
Not that it’s crowded with people shopping since it’s 1030pm.
But more so, everywhere was busy putting up decorations for Christmas.

Brings me back to the time when I was young.
Every year (since birth), my family will celebrate Christmas.
And it will be a HUGE event.
Other than it being my sister’s birthday, it’s also a time where we will get together as a family for a dinner.
Remembering when I was young, come November, my sister and I will eagerly ask “Can we can we can we? Can we put up the Christmas tree NOW?”
I remember my very first Christmas tree was a white one laced with blue trimmings.
And VERY tall. (Cause I was short.)
We eagerly put up the decorations with the help of a ladder!!!
My sister will choose those wooden spoons and I will normally take the ribbons.
Topping the star or an angel will always be a hassle to us – “Should it be an angel this year? Or a star? Hmmm…”
My dad, the man of the house, will usually be the one to end it all with the lighting.
Then as we grew, we decided to change into a green tree so that it’ll look more real.
At age 18 when I shifted to my new place, due to the lack of space, my Christmas tree shrunk.
Knee height!!!

Thinking back, I remember quite vividly that my parents used to bring my sister and I to a church near where we live.
And there was one year, my sis and I joined the caroling choir where we go from house to house to bring them our love, warmth, voice and concern.
I remember it was on 24th Dec and it was a VERY rainy and we were all in a bus travelling from home to home.
The fog in the window brought about so much joy cause we were all writing on the windowpanes.
When young, I never knew what was Christmas all about.
As I grew older, my parents also stopped going to church.
And I followed suit a few years later.

Looking back those 28 years… Every year, without fail, we will celebrate Christmas.
Without fail, we will play Christmas songs, have a Christmas dinner, have a birthday celebration, and watch Christmas programs.
However, do we know the significance of Christmas?
Just another holiday?
Or it so happened to be a birthday?

I asked myself then – How do I want to celebrate Christmas this year?
Opportunity is here.
How do I grab it?
How do I rekindle that fire in my family?
Lots of thoughts.
Lots to pray.

If we hold on together

As I was going back home from CG, I kept singing this song on the train.
Remembering some time back, where I thought where dreams are dashed, tunnel very dark, God revived it again and gave me light again.

Hold on to Him and He will not let go of you.

If we hold on together

Don't lose your way with each passing day
You've come so far, don't throw it away
Live believing, dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story, Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by, for you and I

Souls in the wind must learn how to bend
Seek out a star, hold on till the end
Valley, mountain, there is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Worlds are swaying, someone is praying
Please let them come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by, for you and I
When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark, we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts … Everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by, for you and I

Friendships

Yesterday, I had an “Instant Messaging” conversation with 2 old-time friends from Poly & Uni.
The SOP questions (so we agreed) HAVE to be asked first before the conversation can go on.
1. Are you married?
2. Are you attached?
3. If both are no, Why not?
4. How’s your girlfriend/boyfriend/wife/husband?
5. When’s your big day?

After all these questions, I was asked “Hey man… When was the last time we caught up?”
9 years I coolly answered.
Deep in me I was “Wah… So long liao ah?”
Have arranged for a meet up next week.
Gosh… Wonder how things will be like after 9 years man!
Fatter? Skinnier? Macho-er? Anything to talk about?

That was yesterday through “Instant Messaging”.

Today, my best friend caught me on sms.
The last I heard from him was our birthdays in August.
Yup..! A poly friend who went with me to Uni.
He was in a boring meeting and thus he has the chance to sms me.
A doting & loving father and husband and a responsible worker whom hardly has time to meet friends except through weddings.

Brought me back to the good old days again.
Reminiscing how beautiful friendships were built.
Built over time, quarrels, arguments, bickers, giving, taking, challenges, swimming pools, projects, classes, lectures, breakups, personality clashes, etc.
I remember there was one time where we can just sit down, cry and sigh until the cow comes home and NOT speak a word yet there is an assurance of friendship.
Driving up Mt Cootha for coffee, chatting in the living room till sunrise, finding new places for good cheap food, etc.

Have I ever mentioned that I am one privilege gal with 3 best friends!
(Sometimes, I wonder, how can one have so many best friend when BEST is already BEST. There’s no Bestest you know?)
Thinking back, I realized 3 of these best friends are friends whom we quarreled SO much, shouted, and cried at each other to be where we are now.

Came home & looked through photos…
Thought I’ll share some silly photos.



Amazing 3 days that I had… Just mid week only.

Old liao...!

I was asked by my colleague yesterday morning “If given you the choice, would you go back to Australia again?”
My immediate answer was “YES!”

I love Australia and I miss Australia.
Of course, I do know that it’s the people that I spent my time there with that make the country all so much more perfect.

Yet, there’s just this something about Australia that I love a lot.
It’s more than just the memories that I have with friend there.
I can spend my time there alone walking along the parks or rivers or hide in my secret place, swinging myself away, and driving along the expressways.
Perhaps, it’s THE air that I breathe there…?
Perhaps, it’s THE freedom of space that I have there…?
Perhaps, perhaps perhaps…

After a while after the question my colleague asked, I ask myself – In all reality, would my answer really be that immediate?
Hmm… It will really be an honest “No”.
There are more commitments now.
Gone are those younger days where there’s more freedom of choices – NUS, NTU or overseas?

Then again, my colleague asked me “Hey… Is there anyone ‘chasing’ you?”
I nearly flipped!
That’s the term used when I was in Poly days!!!
It’s been ages that I even hear the word “chase” near my vicinity of vocabulary.

And again, I was thinking, gone are those younger days.

Now, older and more mature, will tend to take a sit back and THINK first.
Think far, think carefully.

Yes… Old liao!

1:30pm, 4:30pm & 11:30pm

This is a long blog CAUSE I had too much thoughts.
Overdose of it overkills me so I jot it down.

- 130pm lunchtime -

Yesterday Inn Siew gave an analogy.
Imagine there’s this guy/gal who has been waiting for you for 10 long years.
And only on the 11th year do you know this long-awaiting friend of yours is waiting.
Wouldn’t you want to marry this person? Wouldn’t you mind committing your life?

Reminded me of the ultimate Korean show – Stairway to Heaven.
Instead of 10 years, the male lead waited for 5 years.
It was with great difficulty that they got together.
What amuses me and got me flipping in laughter in my bed was HOW “rough” they can be with each other.
My goodness!! When they were laughing at the comics, he actually pushed her face with his feet. MIND you… It’s a feet I’m talking about.
She, being a female, was gentler. She whacked him while laughing with a pillow.
Yet, there was NO anger and they held on to their love. (Ok… Maybe cause it’s a movie but I believe in reel life vs real life. The world so big. Something like this MUST have happened before!)



Anyway, what really amuses & touched me was this very deep trust and faith that they share between each other.
Would I dare to be so “rough” on any of my friend and know that person still love me?
Honest answer would be “Nay…”
Through this scripted show, I see how Love covers a multitude of sins.
I think if I am the female lead, I will probably be VERY angry with the guy for the longest time in my life if he EVER dare to push my face.

Haaaa… This again reminded me of something that Inn Siew shared.
She say, it’s not easy for gals to practice “Love covers a multitude of sins” because gals are basically more petty, etc.
GENERAL only ah!! NOT all gals okie?
Actually, when she said that, I can’t help but agreeing.

This is something that I know that I have to overcome.
I am not perfect so how can I expect others to be perfect?
If God’s love can cover a multitude of my sins unceasingly, who am I to hold on to anger or bitterness?

- 430pm knock off time -

I was suddenly curious again.
I've found out before and I forgot again.

So... WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE between a hurricane and a typhoon?

Both are strong winds with speed greater than 74mph.

Hurricanes are found in the Atlantic Ocean. And it goes counterclockwise.
Typhoons are found at the Pacific Ocean, clockwise.
From the site, it says Typhoons are relatively stronger because the water there is warmer. A better condition for Storm Brewing.

Okie…
Then I went on to find “Why does Hurricanes have female names?”
Well, I found out more than just that.

Firstly, women’s names became a practice during the World War II, which was inspired by the 1941 novel, Storm by George R Steward.
In 1951, the US adopted another naming method and in 1953, it returned back to the female naming system.
Ended in 1978 where both gender names are used in the Eastern Pacific, Atlantic and Gulf of Mexico.

I then found my name under the 6-year list for the Eastern Pacific Tropical Storms for the year 2003.

Courtesy from:

http://www.nhc.noaa.gov/HAW2/english/basics/naming.shtml

http://www.fema.gov/hazards/hurricanes/epachurs.shtm

- 11:30pm give thanks time -

Met up with Qianfang and had a wonderful burger at MOS burger.
So nice and so expensive... Haha!

As we were chatting happily, at the corner of my eye, I caught a familiar looking guy!
Haha!! Mr Tiger... :)
I was like "Ok... quick..! Turn over so that can say a hi."
He came over to introduce his friend, Reina who wanted to join HopeV!
Was excited cause it'll be fantastic to have a new member!
Well... Pending pending...

It was a good session with Qianfang and had a great time of sharing.
I'm sure God has placed us together for a reason.

Now, it's time to sleep.
Long day tomorrow.

Zzzzz....

Love

I have been a very grouchy daughter lately when I went back home the past few nights.
For no apparent reason, my dad became very angry with Spanner.
Spanner’s my little black Yorkshire and Sparkle’s my little white Maltese.

Thing is – Ever since Spanner’s been in the home, he barks whenever the doorbell rings.
However, I think it got into my dad only lately and he started whacking him.

On the flip side, when Sparkle bark, dad blamed it on Spanner who taught him the “bad” things and not setting a good example.

I can’t help but feel for Spanner.
Perhaps, this is what’s called the “Transference” as taught in Social Work.
*Flashback*
Remembering when I was young, I was often beaten for not setting a good example for my sister.

For this matter, I became rather grouchy and even showed my displeasure.
I “complained” to my mum that it’s so unfair!
The fact is that Spanner has been like that for 4 years! Why start disciplining now when I have long before told them gotta start young? And also, how can daddy push all the blame to Spanner for Sparkle’s behavior?

This morning, I witness another beating for Spanner.
Gosh… He was so poor thing.
He looked at me with his innocent eyes like beseeching me to help him cause he doesn’t know what has happened that has caused my dad to be so angry.
His ears were all pushed to the back, which showed fear.
His body all curled up to protect his poor backside.
Sparkle on the other hand, quickly run out of the room and went to my room to hide.
He sat VERY still and refused to move a single bit.

Even as I am typing this now during my lunch time, I just received an sms from my sister that Spanner's hiding himself under my sister's comforter! Haha!!

Anyway, what I REALLY wanna share is – Sparkle bit me!
Bit me on my right thumb till it bled a little.
I was very frustrated especially after all the events.
And I beat him on his backside very harshly too!

However, a friend of mine reminded me – Don’t you love them still? Don’t you still love them despite the fact that they had been naughty? Don't after all the whacking, your parents still dote on them and feed them and provide for them?

Yes... I do know that deep in my heart that despite all the whacking and scolding that my dad has delivered, he still love the two of them deeply.
So do I. Despite being bitten, barked at, ignored, I still love the both of them.

Guess in reflection to the Love of God, it is so too…
Despite how naughty, how rebellious, how bad I am or was, God STILL love me and He still forgave me.

1 Cor 13 has been a Love letter from God to us.
I like this most “And now these three remain: Faith, Hope and Love. But the greatest of these is Love.”
Love covers all multitudes of sins and I am sure glad that I have the Love of God in me.

And yes. I know deep in my heart – That when my dad disciplines me, it was for my good.
And kudos to all dads!
It wasn’t easy for them to discipline us.
It was because they love us thus they discipline us.

Sight

After 10 months of savings + $40 voucher + 40% discount, I have decided to FINALLY get my specs...
Yeah!!

Actually, of late, I realised that when I drive in the night it gets blurry cause of my astigmatism.

Opportunity knock, I answer

Of late, I am reading the series of Left Behind.
I am still in the first of 12 books
My friend already completed 4… And I am barely passed 1/2 of the first book!

I lamented “Gosh…, am I a slow reader or is she a fast reader?”, “Is it because she has more transportation time and I have less?”, etc.
In the end, we both understood why.
I simply don’t like the style of reading.
I grew up reading from fairy tales to adventures to criminals.
And each book I read, I will visualize each scene. I will visually “build” the scene in my mind.
In this book, I find, it’s very dry.
When I thought that the place is supposed to be chaotic, the writer wrote such that it gives the impression that it’s not.
I am totally confused.

However, I will resolute to finish reading.
Despite being unable to visualize, I still find the story absolutely enchanting.
It speaks of the end times where people just simply disappear leaving their clothes behind.

Yesterday, I was given the opportunity at my working place.
My pharmacy manager and myself was talking about the number “666” and my colleague got curious about the end times.
My pharmacy manager left and I quickly got back to the topic of end times…
Spoke about the Tsunami and Hurricanes and slowly, I spoke about Christ.
I really tried not to look too excited in case she thinks I am very pushy.
She questioned a lot and it was great seeing her look of anticipation which each question she asked.
I was given the opportunity to share about the life of Christ.

I am praying that I will have more opportunities to share with her.
I am beginning to love this colleague a lot.
I believe that when I resign, I will miss her lots.
Sometimes, as I walk home, I will think of the jokes we make at work and will smile as I walk home.
It’s a fantastic relationship!
Hopefully, the relationship will deepen.

Your Grace still amazes me

Was totally ministered during today's P&W.
His grace still amazes me and His love is still such a mystery.
The author to my life, the river that never runs dry.
His thoughts will always be higher than mine.
His ways will always be one that I can never fathom.

But His promise has assured me that as long as I keep trusting in Him and don't lean upon my own understanding.
He will be with me through it all.
As long as I call upon His name, He will be there.

Your Grace, Lord, still amazes me

Timing & Teamwork

It's amazing how God put everything together in His own wonderful timing.
Over the past 2 days, I stand amazed at God's wonderful timing & the word call "Teamwork"...

Past 2 nights have been spending time in Africa room doing some deco for church.
It was really amazing how everything was pieced together and how within 2 nights, I have made so many incredible friends.
Lots to thank God for.

I thank God for Sarah for she really chirp us up with her wonderful singing and her bubbliness just reminded me "San, it's time to let loose!!!!"
Her ideas and her willingness reminds me what a great joy it is to serve the Lord!

I thank God for David (Sarah's CL) that came last min.
Why?
Because he's a Carton Expert!
Well, we were suppose to make a sturdy backing for a 1.5m in diameter "printed out" plate.
But the cardboards were too flimsy...
Then here came David giving us the "Carton Theories".
Amazing brother who God sent.

I thank God for Aifang!
Man! When she first sliced the bread, it was so precise.
Every edge, every curve, every in and out, she got it all right.
Sarah, Janice and myself were SO impressed!
Grew to enjoy her company and her very creative ideas.

Jan Jan Jan... My good old friend Jan...
She came with more cartons and VERY sticky tape!
Something that I missed out when I did my purchase of stuffs!
I guess... this very good friend of mine really compliment me.
For times when I am forgetful, there she is to remind me very gently.

Ya.... Then today, there is the Adult WAM here to practice for Sunday P&W...
Really thank God...
Music is something that sooths someone. Especially music that praises the Lord.

Teamwork.
A very beautiful word cause it's a team that works together that bring all glory to the One above.
What a wonderful feeling it is to know that God has placed in each and everyone a unique gifting.

A joke, A riddle and a baby

A joke a 9-yr old friend asked me.

Jon Kit: If a baby pig is a piglet, what is a baby tiger called?
Me: Hmm... Tigerlet? Cub?
Jon Kit: NO!!! Haha!!! It's TIGGER!!!

*duH*

Responsibility and Integrity

Lesson powerpoint for HopeKids this week is “I will do the right thing even when it’s not easy.”
A story from our material goes like this.

A man had an injury that required physical therapy. His doctor prescribed a whirlpool treatment and the man enjoyed the soothing whirlpool bath. However, when he moved to a new town, his new doctor felt that he needed a different kind of treatment. In the new doctor’s opinion, the whirlpool treatment was not the correct therapy. The man was upset, telling the doctor the whirlpool wouldn’t do any harm and it might do some good. But the doctor was a professional and his goal was to help the man recover from his injury and not to satisfy the patient’s requests. So the patient decided to find a different doctor who would give him what he wanted, not what he needed. And the man never recovered from his injury. It’s the different between wants and what is right.

Responsibility and integrity go hand in hand.

Very true very true…
Just this morning, a patient barged in and demanded for some services. And in my heart, I was wondering, what gave him the audacity to even think that we will give in to his demands.
Think many times, I fall into this very irritating situation.
Sometimes, patients can get very mean and demanding (yes… Perhaps cause they are ill)
However, I believe also that as an Op Mgmt, we also ought to stand upright, firm and with integrity.
There are times when we give in and hey… next thing we know is another patient who come and say “You did it for him, why can’t you do it for me?”

One thing I learn – We can’t please all… :)

God’s the ultimate one that I should please.

Missed my darling dearly...
Can't wait for him to call me godma... Hee...
Missed him so much that I did a mini montage of him...

Choices

Sometimes in life, we are given very direct choices but we just don't take it do we?

Cheerios!

Squeezed

1715hrs 30/09/05

You know?
Very often, we hear subordinates lamenting that supervisors don’t know what they are going through.
Hmm… Think I am very much one of those subordinates that complain all the time that my boss simply don’t understand what we are doing.
Many times, my colleague and myself will always joke saying “One day should just let him come down and don’t see patients. Just run the clinic and control the crowd.”

So, in order NOT to be like my boss, I resolute to be like my staff so that I can really understand what they are going through.
I guess… That’s why sometimes, I do enjoy myself behind the registration desk and payment counter.
And I do enjoy tracing and filing patient’s casenotes.

Today, was I was doing filing, being SO small size, no one realised I was right inside… and they rolled the compactus and squeezed me in between!!!
You know? I felt like I am in a dungeon and I stepped on some “ji guan” and the doors all close up on me.Heee… I screamed so loud that even my registration clerks ran in to see what happened!!!
A pretty big hoo-ha I’ve created…
Heee… My staff was real real sorry about it cause she has experienced it before and felt the pain.
That moment, I felt that, hey… I wouldn’t know the little “bumps” in their working life till I experience it myself…
I guess… This is just one small experience.

Now, I am awaiting for my Xray department to be ready then I can lock up the clinic… (Yes… I am typing this after work hours but at work. Load it up later.)

Till later…

0106hrs 01/10/05

Just back from a wedding dinner.
It’s the wedding of a friend’s sister.
Not that I am close to the bride… But I am close to my friend.
So close that I sit at the table that’s for her relatives!
Gosh… My sister and I were stunned beyond words.
As we were sitting at the table, we were waiting in anticipation for another 2 more friends to come.
However, only 1 turn up… WITH a handsome young man!

This young man was the JOKE and ENTERTAINMENT of the night!
A wonderful and very handsome 7 yr old boy…
Clicked off very well with him…
Guess training at HopeKids does help a little… Haha!
We became good friends very fast… And I managed to grab a pic together with him.
Hmmm… It’s in my phone. Will try to retrieve it out!! (Phone’s software something wrong! The s/w just can’t communicate! Anyone has an E720C?)
Oh ya... Not forgetting, my table has 2 other kids.
One fell asleep sucking her thumb and the other ran everywhere.
I guess, I ate more than I could ask for...!! Haha!!

Ooooh.. I can’t wait for tomorrow!
Going to Bt Timah Hill for a climb.
The interesting part is that we will be bringing a group of visually handicap people…
Heeee… It’s gonna be real interesting!
Praying hard that the weather’s gonna be good…
Praying hard that we will be equipped well with training though last min.

Now, time for beauty sleep…

Oh ya! Happy Children’s Day!!!! Yippie YiPpiE!!!

Smile cause you are on Candid Camera!

"Sandra… SMILE", says my CISCO guard as he bends down and looks to see if I am smiling.

The whole morning, I was a registration clerk cum payment clerk cum health attendant. Doing nothing but smiling at patients despite patients’ screaming and scolding.
In my mind, all I know was "SMILE! Don’t let other patients see your frustrations!"
And so… Here I am, in my E-Office (my office is actually an Emergency room. When there’s E-cases, I will need to evacuate myself)… Where was I?
Oh… So… Here I am in my E-office, having some quiet time and reading a magazine from my clinic. I was simply too tired to smile anymore lest to joke around with my CISCO guard.

"Sandra… SMILE", says my CISCO guard as he bends down and looks if I am smiling.
I smiled and he said, "Ok! Today Sandra is fine!"

That really brought a smile to my face.
Remembering that very first time where I forgot to lock my door and he came in to see how I was after a patient shouted at me.
Unknowingly, he caught me in tears.
Think it really shocked him cause he was dumbfounded!
But can’t help it la… I wasn’t even scolded by my parents in public before…
And I do not advocate quarrelling in public.
Well, that got me a treat to Mee Siam & Chinchow drink from him.
Thank goodness I recovered fast and am still in my job. Haha!! Someone told me an ex-colleague resigned after a cry. So I think, I am considered a little better…

Sometimes, I do wonder though… Did that incident made me to be viewed as a "weak" gal.
I guess… Everyone DOES have his or her weaknesses.
And for me, I am real blessed to have a colleague whose weakness is NOT the same as mine.
She is strong and when patient scolds her, she can talk back SO politely but yet it’s quite curt.
Her weakness is language and presentation.
It’s quite a weird scenario you know when I think about it…

When there’s a tough patient and I am handling, I will always lock eyes with her SOS-ing for help.
When she's doing a presentation, I will be needed to help her with design and how to use powerpoint.
We both have learnt to support one another... And working became pretty fun!

This has truly proved to me that relationships are very important.
Like in work place, Relationship, Networking and Partnering is truly an importance essence in establishing the Kingdom of God.
The Great Commission is not just for one person.
Everyone has a role to play.
That's why, I am comforted to know that I am in this family of God.

Cheerios!

Vampire-ish

WooHoo!!
It was a good weekend break for me though it was a VERY bloody weekend!
Went to have my teeth cleaned on Friday at a polyclinic and realized that I have to have my Wisdom tooth extracted.
Because of a VERY bad experience at the clinic's dentist, I decided to heed my manager’s advise and go for a private one.
I wanted to do it there and then but cause of a wedding dinner, I decided against it.
Then decided, "Ok… Monday shall be it!" That’s about the earliest cause can’t take MC on Sat due to work.
However, because of the cleaning that was done, it start to hurt me real bad.
Ms Dentist told me that before the cleaning, it was like a dormant volcano.
After the cleaning, it has erupted.
Thanks for the Geography lesson! Haha!

I had a good time with the dentist actually.
Before that, I had a HARD time trying to stop the butterflies from flitting around in my stomach actually.
And I almost took up whatever courage that I have left to go through the pain of the two jabs.
Well, when I went in, I was greeted with a very young and friendly dentist.
Initially, I do doubt her capabilities… But then, my teeth is in her hands..
I have to exercise faith…!

Ms Dentist did a real good job in warming me up…
And we chatted for quite some time…
As we chatted, we found out that we both love God and we both love kids and are serving in the children’s church…
Hmmm…. The two jabs were real pain honestly. I could feel my muscles tensing and unknowingly, tears just trickle. Must have hit the Pain Nerve. Haha!
But I must say that her voice was really soothing.

What good I gained out of it?
Heee… Other than the wisdom tooth out, I got 10% discount too!
A real good blessing!!!
And the rest of the day, I had a bloody mouth and a shortage of wisdom!!Haha!
The joke came about from my colleague who said that when my wisdom tooth is out, I will be in lack of wisdom.
And my friend added on cause that day, I just seemed SO blur!
I can’t remember what I was saying and I forgot where I am going!?Is it lack of wisdom or is it just plain sotong?

Nonetheless, I rested well on Sat to be ready for Sunday HopeKids Live!
Gosh…It’s been 3 weeks that I wasn’t on duty and I do really miss those kids.
I was so amazed by HT who did a wonderful puppet show to introduce the host!
What really spoke to me was the simple word F.A.I.T.H.
Remember I was doubtful if the dentist could do a good job on my teeth?
Well, how would I know if I hadn’t let her touch my teeth?
Likewise, the message to the kids was "How would they know that the Incredibles VCD is REALLY Incredibles? Just because the label says so?"
Also "How would you know that this plane ticket will bring us to HongKong? Just because the plane ticket tells us so?"

Faith is about believing in something you do not see!
Wow! Simple truth yet SO powerful!!!
During the praise and worship session, I found myself really enjoying it.
The kids have GREAT capabilities worshipping God!
Oh man!When they sang "Give thanks", my heart melted!
They sang it so so so sooooooo beautifully…
Wished I had a video cam to record it down… :)
At the end, Ps Dinah encouraged all kids and teachers alike to clean up our bad habits.
Interestingly, when I went for the 2nd service, Pastor Ben spoke about washing up.
I didn’t stay throughout but what I caught was "San, is there anything you need to wash up?"

Yup yup yuP!
Is there anything I need to wash up?
Lots.

:)

Questions Questions Questions

"When's your turn?"
"You not attached? Come on la! Don't bluff la!"
"SURE?! You not attached?"
"Wah... The older you get, the prettier you get too..."
"Are you very choosy? Must be la!"

Whatever made anyone think that the older one must get married first?
I don't get this...!
Haha!
Well, bombarded by questions like the above and that's not all.
I thought I was relatively safe from these questions cause my aunties ain't really those "san gu liu po" type...
But who knows?
These questions comes from my cousins!
Haha!

Just attended my cousin's wedding if you guys were wondering why all those questions.
The wedding was beautiful.
PLace was fantastically decorated.
Music... food was good.
The couple looks just TOO fabulous..!

Hmm... Weddings will usually put me deep in thoughts.

• Being not very close to my cousins, family weddings will see me sitting down and wrecking my brains as to what questions can I ask to keep the ball rolling?
• If it's non-church good friend's wedding, I will normally be kept busy answering why have I decided to change my career route and why am I not attached.
• If it's a church friend's wedding, things will really be easier... I will normally be able to sit back and relax. Free from unnecessary questions...!
• Some of the times, I will be invited to weddings where perhaps I'm that privileged friend so I will be sitting with 8-9 others that I don't know. Being VERY un-people person, I REALLY wreck my brains as to WHAT to talk. Many times, I will kick myself in the butt wondering why I even attend the wedding!
• Well, and SOMETIMES, I will be invited to weddings that's my friend's siblings! That's the interesting one... I will be wondering - Why I even bother..! (Okie.. "Bother" is too strong a word...)

Sometimes I do feel.. "Wow!! After all the effort of perhaps a year, it's over in JUST one night. Amazing."
Anyhow, after every wedding, I will be so happy.
Cause I know at least there's one couple who's ecstatic!

As I'm typing this now, I am excitedly speaking to a friend from Oz!
Gosh!! Am SO happy seeing him online that I GRABBED his attention quick!
Haven't seen him for ages!!! Miss him so much... He's another friend who stuck by me when I was in Oz...
Man.. He has gotten married!
Time flies....

OH NO!!!
Even as I am STILL typing this now, I am given yet another invitation to another wedding...
And I have another wedding to attend next Friday...

OKie.... Gonna go rest from all the shock...

Zzzzz..........................................

Who is the Reason?

We are the Reason

As little children we would dream of Christmas morn
And all the gifts and toys we knew we'd find
But we never realized a baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

And we were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more about gifts
And giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
Because of love, because of love

And we are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

I finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him
For Him

And we are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

He is my reason to live

Shiok

This is my dog on my new sofa!!
Hee... "Infuriated" my mum... She don't even "舍得" sit on it..Haha!

Nights...

Whirlpool

Today's a great whirlpool for me, my colleague and my clinic.
We are all preparing for a group of 30 delegates from a chinese speaking country.
Tomorrow's their arrival...
And for the past one week, my colleague and myself have been busy tidying the clinic, planning the food, drinks, presentation slides, goodie bag, putting up posters, hiding VERY bad crack lines, arranging of chairs, making sure audio and visuals are all working fine and preparing ourselves to speak in Mandarin!!

It's really in events such as this, we really bothered to tidy things up, tighten up the loose screws...
And it's in events such as this, relationship with colleagues are strengthened!
We had a real good laugh trying to find chinese words for our presentation!
Gosh!!!
Only then we know that conversationally, we are fine with Mandarin..
But when it comes to presentation, we flip!

Well... Let's see how things go tomorrow!!

Oyasumi... ZZZzzzzz

Dial Up

Downloading something that's 8.2MB huge.
And I'm on Dial up.
After 30mins, I've just downloaded 4.83MB and still counting.
Feeling like I'm in dinosaur age definitely...

Taking a break from my storyboarding...
I'm running out of creative ideas & thought I'll take a rest.
Reminiscing this morning's sermon.
Unable to fathom why, even after 8 hours of sleep almost everyday, I am so tired.
This morning I couldn't wake up to my alarm clock!

I remember during this morning's prayer meet, my first prayer was "God, please wake me up!".
Haha!!
Well.. Indeed, He woke me up!!
With a very powerful prayer leader, P&W leaders, music makers, chairperson, offering leader and a very powerful sermon through a very Godly man. :)
Had a guest speaker coming by today to share the word of God.
Being one who loves mathematics, being one who was trained in Engineering, alot of things I see was equations too...
And one equation that he shared was Faith + Grace = Breakthrough
Breakthrough is about faith by grace, fulfilled through commitment.
I was convinced that if I want a breakthrough and I will have to give what I have.
Breakthrough here I come!!

Gosh... It's only 7.01MB...
Okie! Before procrastination and ideas gets lost, let me get back to my storyboard now!!

Dance

The Cha-cha – A fast 4/4 latin dance
The Foxtrot – A slow 4/4 dance
The Waltz – A slow 3/3 music
The Mambo – A fast 4/4 latin dance which is faster than Cha-Cha
The Disco – A fast 4/4 dance (Usually to rock or electric music)
The Tango, Samba, Polka & Line dancing – Own unique style

Am I taking up dancing?
Nay… not now.
This dance thingy was just a sudden thought that came to me today while I was working.

In order to exercise crowd control, we are given directives to work REAL fast from 8-9am. I.e. full strength
9-10:30am, a 3rd strength.
10:30-11am, 2 3rd strength.
11am-1pm, full strength and CHIONG ChIoNG CHIONG!
Same for afternoon…
2-2:30pm, full strength
2:30-3:30pm, a 3rd
3:30-4:30pm, full strength
1-2pm PEACE!!

As a supervisor, I felt like I’m coordinating some kind of a dance…
Firstly, you have to go crazy to rock or electric music and dance the Disco!!
An hour too much? Go slow… Maybe you go for the Waltz or perhaps even the foxtrot if you like “trot” around on the same spot.
After that, picking up speed, maybe you will like to have your own unique style of dancing… Maybe the Tango? The polka or the Samba? Or the famous Line Dancing now.
For me, I’ll perhaps choose the Tango – Without the rose and partner. Haha!!
Warm up done already right? Then you are ready for the crazy Disco dance again!
Rest for lunch and back to the dance floor!

Blurized?
Haha… Just some crappy thoughts of the day…

“Life is a dance, from one stage to the next.”

Aftertaste

Bitter root.
The bible says in Hebrews 12:14-15 to make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord. See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many.

I remember the first time I had a malaria pill was 3 years back. I don’t quite remember the details but I remember that the pill leave a bitter aftertaste. Anything that I ate after the pill was the taste of the pill. It’s simply Y.U.C.K.S. I better not eat anything good after the pill cause it will be wasted.

Felt that it’s pretty much the same about life.
It’s very clearly written that we should try not to let any bitter roots grow longer than it should.
Before it can cause trouble, we better be conscious and be soften to allow God to come in else, it will slowly eat into our own lives.
The prisoner is never the other party. We become our own prisoner.
May the Lord soften hearts that are hard and hurt.
May the Lord “breaks” us that we can be broken and contrite.

Heee… Anyway, on a lighter note…
Guess what?
I decided to dig out my Jap shows that I had since 8 years back.
Caught "With Love" & "Overtime".
Both the storylines are VERY different.
But the ending has the same equation.
Love = Letting go.
Overtime still has the power to bring some tears to my eyes.
Haha!!!!!

Back to books for now...

P.S. Something that I designed for my clinic flag. *wink*

Jabbed

Guess what’s the best thing about working in a healthcare industry?
We get to be vaccinated with the latest vaccine!
I’m due for yet another jab…
Gosh… This is really training me for my fear of needles!!
I should have written it as one of my 7 "scares".
I remember there was once when I was in Brisbane and they were giving out the chickenpox vaccine for free.
My friend and I decided to go TOGETHER so that we can encourage each other.
In the end, none of us went cause we were too TOO fearful!
Sometimes, I am amazed at the things I can be scared of…
Well, just pray hard that there is no side effects to this vaccine in me. *smile*

Met a good old friend for lunch today.
Ok… I didn’t eat cause I had lunch already. My friend ate and I drank coffee.
Hmm… In the busy-ness of things in life, SOMETIMES, a quick catch-up feels just as good!
I was posed a question – What are you busy with lately?
Immediate answer was – Like that lor…
Thinking back, I do wonder – Have I lost the excitement in life? I hope not…! Still wanna go through the excitement in life! Every new day is a day to unfold the wonders of the Lord.
Just keep praying that I won’t forget to give thanks and not to be complacent.

Okie!! Advertisement advertisement advertisement time….!
There’s the International Day of the Deaf Carnival coming up!
Date: 17th and 18th Sept 2005
Time: 11am to 10pm on 17th Sept
11am to 10pm on 18th Sept
Venue: Outside Takashimaya fountain. Along the pathway…

- Col 3:17 -
And whatever you go, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

The Perfect Seven

Challenged by Tiger!!!
Aiyo… Why 7 so many? Haha!!

7 things that scare me
- God's wrath
- natural disasters (brings me to tears)
- losing my phone (my contacts!)
- losing my purpose/dream in life
- losing my friends
- going through life alone
- shopping


7 things I like the most
- seeing the world
- fellowshipping (friends, brothers, sisters)
- kids (any kid along the street even!)
- listening to songs
- watches
- doing handicraft / work
- photos

7 important things in my room
- bible
- passport
- Elmo soft toy (given by best friend)
- aircon
- wardrobe of clothes, photo albums & books
- wallet
- tidbits (always hungry. Friend say I am like an empty vessel!!)

7 random facts about me
- I have very sensitive skin. Get rashes easily.
- I’m nuts over nuts & choc!
- I have sinus so I’ll sniff lots in the morning.
- I have a grade 6 in piano but can’t play a single thing now.
- I love jap stuffs
- I love old things (movies, songs, antiques, etc)
- I love musicals (though I can’t play any instruments for nuts!)

7 things I plan to do before I die
- live out the purpose God has purposed for me
- bring more to Christ
- find my soulmate
- have children of own
- see the world
- tell my parents and sister “I love you” (I still can’t bring myself to say)
- see my children be man/woman of God

7 things I can do
- make accessories/jewelries
- talk endless on phone with close friends
- cook (only in Brisbane. Hardly cook now)
- always try to be available for my friends
- decorate a wedding place
- hold my chopstick properly. :P
- roll/flip my tongue (Heeeee…..)

7 things I can't do
- can’t public speaking
- can’t think fast
- can’t leave a friend if he/she’s in need
- can’t erase my memories *smile*
- can’t forget a good deed done for me
- can’t make friends fast
- can't exercise regularly (OK!! I’m TRYING!!!)

7 things I say the most
- really ah?
- Heee… (my friend say I am a donkey!)
- great!
- Duh!
- Sure?
- Eh…
- Hmmm…

7 celeb crushes (Ok.. Just celebs that I really like. Never crush before)
- Meg Ryan
- Aaron Kwok
- Susan Serandon (think I spelt wrongly)
- Hugh Jackman (dunno if it’s the correct name!!)
- Richard Lui (ChannelNewsAsia)
- Suzanne Jung
- Glenda Chong

7 people who will have to do this
- Inn Siew (if you have the time)
- Jonathan
- Chris (Does this give you the reason to start a blog?)
- Tricia
- Esta (Duplicate from Tiger)
- Jorena
- *BLANK* Can't think of anyone!!