Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Control Freak

Arena

(known to self and others)

Blind Spot

(known only to others)

able, accepting, adaptable, brave, caring, cheerful, clever, complex, confident, dependable, friendly, giving, independent, intelligent, knowledgeable, logical, loving, organised, reflective, responsive, searching, sensible, sentimental, shy, silly, spontaneous, sympathetic, tense, trustworthy, warm, witty

Façade

(known only to self)

Unknown

(known to nobody)

bold, calm, dignified, energetic, extroverted, happy, helpful, idealistic, ingenious, introverted, kind, mature, modest, nervous, observant, patient, powerful, proud, quiet, relaxed, religious, self-assertive, self-conscious, wise

Percentages

able (44%) accepting (11%) adaptable (11%) brave (11%) caring (11%) cheerful (11%) clever (11%) complex (11%) confident (11%) dependable (44%) friendly (11%) giving (11%) independent (22%) intelligent (33%) knowledgeable (11%) logical (22%) loving (11%) organised (33%) reflective (44%) responsive (11%) searching (22%) sensible (11%) sentimental (22%) shy (11%) silly (11%) spontaneous (11%) sympathetic (22%) tense (11%) trustworthy (33%) warm (22%) witty (22%)

Hum... As of 15/03/06, these are what a few of my friends think of me. Hmmm... Guess what? It's sort of a little different from what I thought of myself! I have never thought I was witty nor intelligent. Ok.. Let's be rationale. Maybe a little. Well, the above is the Johari Window. It was introduced to me 2 years ago when I was taking my course. I remembered my lecturer "challenged" us (classmates) to do a Johari Window on ourselves and see after the course, how well do we know each other. But basically, this is for better self-awareness.

Doing this made me recall my conversation I had with my classmate not too long ago. I was supposed to meet her at Little India for dinner. She gave me a road name and asked me if I know where is it located. I told her no but I will find out. She said that it's all right, she will "pick" me up at the train station. In less than 5 mins, I told her I know exactly how to get there from my working place. Don't have to pick me up at the train station. Her next question to me was "Are you a Control-Freak?" This friend has always "scolded" me for being "fiercely independent". Haha!!

That statement was a HUGE statement! I gotta admit to her that I have a little of that in me. In a way, I like to know that I have things within my reach. I mean... Honestly, I really don't know whether am I REALLY REALLY a Control-Freak but given me a choice, I'd rather find things out for myself and get there myself. And also, I have problems delegating a job out fully. I get panic when I don't do the job myself. But yet on the flip side, I must also say that delegating is an ART... It's really about injecting trust and trusting that person you place the job with. Am still learning.

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