Life is a Test

The Purpose Driven Life book that I was reading mentioned that Life is like a Test.

Today, I felt that I was much tested too.

Supposingly, I was to knock off at 9pm. However, a turn of events got me to knock off at 715pm. Very tempted to go home. As I was towards the train station, I was standing right in the middle of the platform - East or West?

Part of me, wants so much to go home, miss my bed, miss my dinners with parents.
The other part, felt that after missing CG for quite some time, thought it's only right to go CG.
Ok... And so, I drag my feet to the West - CG - Quite reluctantly.

2 school of thoughts
1st, "Why? San, you rarely can go home, go home la."
2nd, "Well, even if you go home, you can't do your work! Your thumbdrive is in the office!"
Well, I could say that I want to go home and enjoy my family time.
Yet on the flip side, I also realised that I haven't spent much time with my spiritual family.

So, well, I hopped West.

Took out my book to read again and its opening statement is "Life is all about love" then the author went on to quote "When we have the opportunity to help anyone, we should do it. But we should give special attention to those who are in the family of believers."

Honestly, when I read it, I was totally stunned! I mean "Wow!! I didn't know there's such a verse!"

Start to ask myself "Why do God give such specific love to believers?"
The book then went on to explain that God wants his family to be known for its love more than anything else. He wants us to be in close regular fellowship with other believers so that you can develop the skill of loving.

Then, I realised that it's through fellowship that I learn how to love.
So many times, busyness has become the enemy of relationship.
And for me, I think lately, tiredness has become the enemy of relationships.
If relationships, like I mentioned before, is the essence of life, then, how can we build strong relationships?
And many times, relationships are like something that is squeezed out of my schedule.

Like yesterday, cause I last min cancelled an evening meeting then could I pop down to visit my Godson whom I didn't visit since 24/10/04!!
How then, can I deepen my relationship with my best friend and my godson?
Speak about squeezing my schedules man... hee..

Sometimes, out of the truth, I really felt that I am really tired. But then again, I ask myself, can I be stretched further?

Well, there is NO conclusion to today's blog. I am just penning my thoughts as I type. I realised it's getting rather messy cause I can't focus. My mind's quite a blank. My back felt like it's going to break anytime but my hair's too wet to sleep.

Ok, I am just going to lie on my bed FACE DOWN.

Jaane..

Added after a good night sleep
I forgot to pen this down last night. Haha!!
Last night when I came home, despite the physical tiredness, I felt emotionally refreshed seeing friends, chatting, etc.
Indeed, fellowship is not done alone but with people.

GOOD MORNING!!!!!!!!