In God I trust

Today I had a nightmare. I dreamt that my family and I were clinging on to our lives on the wing of an airplane. (I presume it was a real small airplane cause I could see my mum & sis on the right wing when I was with my dad hanging onto the left wing)The setting was in the night and the wind was very strong. Clouds were above me cause I could feel the pitter-patter of the rain. As I looked down, I see small little houses.

Suddenly, I heard a voice asking me LET GO and I was like “HUH?!”. Somehow, I managed to convince with shouts and screams to my dad, mum and sis to let go too. When I let go, I gripped my dad’s hands real tight while we were trying to reach out for my mum & sis. (Think I am doing some sky diving thing here) But I remember I saw a picture of a sea. THEN I start to question “How can it be sea when I saw LOTS of houses?”. And I furiously prayed in the spirit.

Right. And I woke up. I don’t know if I got saved. I don’t know if I survived. I only know I relied on that voice that asked me to let go.

I woke up with a BAD headache.

Headache got worse when I realised that my practicum starts in January 9th. And due dates March 29th. In all logic, I cannot imagine HOW I am going to complete my 400 hours. Work OT also not enough. Worst of all, I realised now that though I have gotten my bonus, I cannot resign till Jan 1st else I have to pay my company back and I sort of need my bonus to pay fees.

Ah well, just when I thought I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, I realised that very much like my dream, I have to exercise faith in the One who has brought me through so much ordeals already. When all logic fails me, God is bigger than my logic. What is one more ordeal to Him? Everyday when I head to town, I will always see this sign after Eunos station by this company called Index Cool. It says “In God we trust”. I am always comforted when I see it.

In God I trust.