Love

I have been a very grouchy daughter lately when I went back home the past few nights.
For no apparent reason, my dad became very angry with Spanner.
Spanner’s my little black Yorkshire and Sparkle’s my little white Maltese.

Thing is – Ever since Spanner’s been in the home, he barks whenever the doorbell rings.
However, I think it got into my dad only lately and he started whacking him.

On the flip side, when Sparkle bark, dad blamed it on Spanner who taught him the “bad” things and not setting a good example.

I can’t help but feel for Spanner.
Perhaps, this is what’s called the “Transference” as taught in Social Work.
*Flashback*
Remembering when I was young, I was often beaten for not setting a good example for my sister.

For this matter, I became rather grouchy and even showed my displeasure.
I “complained” to my mum that it’s so unfair!
The fact is that Spanner has been like that for 4 years! Why start disciplining now when I have long before told them gotta start young? And also, how can daddy push all the blame to Spanner for Sparkle’s behavior?

This morning, I witness another beating for Spanner.
Gosh… He was so poor thing.
He looked at me with his innocent eyes like beseeching me to help him cause he doesn’t know what has happened that has caused my dad to be so angry.
His ears were all pushed to the back, which showed fear.
His body all curled up to protect his poor backside.
Sparkle on the other hand, quickly run out of the room and went to my room to hide.
He sat VERY still and refused to move a single bit.

Even as I am typing this now during my lunch time, I just received an sms from my sister that Spanner's hiding himself under my sister's comforter! Haha!!

Anyway, what I REALLY wanna share is – Sparkle bit me!
Bit me on my right thumb till it bled a little.
I was very frustrated especially after all the events.
And I beat him on his backside very harshly too!

However, a friend of mine reminded me – Don’t you love them still? Don’t you still love them despite the fact that they had been naughty? Don't after all the whacking, your parents still dote on them and feed them and provide for them?

Yes... I do know that deep in my heart that despite all the whacking and scolding that my dad has delivered, he still love the two of them deeply.
So do I. Despite being bitten, barked at, ignored, I still love the both of them.

Guess in reflection to the Love of God, it is so too…
Despite how naughty, how rebellious, how bad I am or was, God STILL love me and He still forgave me.

1 Cor 13 has been a Love letter from God to us.
I like this most “And now these three remain: Faith, Hope and Love. But the greatest of these is Love.”
Love covers all multitudes of sins and I am sure glad that I have the Love of God in me.

And yes. I know deep in my heart – That when my dad disciplines me, it was for my good.
And kudos to all dads!
It wasn’t easy for them to discipline us.
It was because they love us thus they discipline us.