Life

Lately, I have been thinking about this thing called life.
Went for the Seasons of Life seminar.
Life indeed is a wonderful thing....
The young crying.. the adolescents' searching.. the adult finding partners.. the kids you will have.. the grandparents...
The life we have.

For 14 years, I have this wonderful friend... and we went through life together.
Her son's my godson.. Lovely child he is.. Seee.... Heee...:)



I can't believe it... He's a year old already...
Each time I see him, he looks different.
When Kim (the lecturer for Seasons of Life) mentioned that babies will start to "select" people at 12months old, I really wanted to jump up and say that it's SO true!!
*sob*...
My godson is beginning not to allow me to carry him..
Each time I carry, he cries.. *Sob SoB*
No matter how I try to sayang him, to tempt him with toy, he cries and struggle for his mummy and yaya.. *grimace*
I mean.. aiyo.. all I want is to carry him to his mummy...

A thought came to me...
Whoopz! Am I sometimes like that with God?
Just wanna struggle and not let Him lead me?
Like I am bringing Matt to his mummy, he doesn't know and he doesn't see his mummy so he didn't know that I am that "car" that transport him to his mummy.
Again, am I sometimes like that with God?
You know.. we always have our struggles.. but we struggle cause we can't see the end point.
We struggle cause we can't give our full trust.

Just like in Mr Erikson's theory, everyone at a certain point of time would be going through a certain phase in life with ONE crisis in it.
If we didn't get past that crisis and move on to another age, we may have a slight chance of bringing past hurts into the later part of my life and again, we may need to go back to that stage to "settle" it before moving on...

Can't help but think "Hey.. isn't it the same for us believers? We have our growing phase too.."
And perhaps.. just perhaps.. at each phase, there is a crisis for us to overcome.
When we overcome that phase, we will move up and grow in Christ.
And if we don't, we may just have to re-learn again.

My ex shepherd always tells me there ALWAYS is light in the tunnel.
Just a matter of whether we want to open our spiritual eyes and see that light.

Proverbs 8:19
"My fruit is better than fine gold; what I yield surpasses choice silver."