More than ever

In a crisis situation, many times when it's time to make a judgement call, it's so very very hard. Logical & objective decisions have to be made. When I am asked a question, I have to know why I do what I do. I can't say "I don't know.". Think Sandra THINK!!!

More than ever, I felt that in my job, I need God so so so much more. For discernment, for alertness, for anointing, for wisdom, for courage, for strength. More than ever, I felt this hunger and desire to pray more, to know God more. More than ever, I felt grateful - for a job, a family, sister, friends, comfortability of a home and even an own room, food and more importantly, the love of God. More than ever, I felt so strongly the question of "How I wish so-and-so know this God whom I know! Wouldn't that solve all problems?!". More than ever, I felt my patience & love tested and find myself giving chances after chances. But more than ever, I have never never EVER felt so motivated to work everyday.

Perhaps where I am working right now is a community where it is pretty well-known for being the elderly area and that's why, I am seeing more funerals than I have in my normal life.
Today, as I walked towards my workplace, I saw 4 wakes. I find myself asking - What was his/her life before like? Does he/she has an opportunity to know God? What have they left behind?

When I asked my good friend - Who do you want your life to be likened to? She said - A snail. A snail is very slow. But as it crawls, it leaves behind this slimy trail. And she said that each step she walked, she wants to leave behind something good - be it in her workplace, her home or someone's life. And I felt - If I were to leave the world tomorrow, what will I be leaving behind?

No no.. don't misunderstood that I am going to get all melocholic and emotional here. =) Just a question to motivate myself.