Can't help it

Can't help it to write a new blog with so much thoughts running in my mind lately.

Ever since my arrival back to Singapore from Hong Kong, I longed for intimacy with God in congregational worship. (Not sure why but I love the feeling of the whole congregation coming together to praise and to worship God.)
During the trip in Hong Kong, I thought, I felt, I dreamt and I was reminded to remind myself of God's goodness in my life. Honestly, I do not know why! Each time I do something or say something, something just stopped me in my tracks to give thanks for what I had learned from my past mistakes.

And today, we sang "I'm held by Your love" in service. Tears just automatically flow. Memories of yesteryear flowed back today and yes, tears fall. I started to think of how I felt when I was hurts, of the agony of giving something up, of the pain of giving something away. And that was when, I know - God hurts EVEN more when Jesus died on the Cross. That's when all loose pieces of jigsaw fell into places. Giving thanks was to keep me in track to keep the joy! Keep the joy of Salvation! It comes for free but it didn't come easy.