Countenance

I remember vividly that there’s this friend in my group of friends who used to have bad mood swings. We will usually use the Richter Scale to measure how swingy the mood is.

One day, I got sick of guessing what happened to the mood of my friend and I plucked up my courage and asked. It’s amazing what the answer was – Nothing happened to me… I am just deep in thoughts. All it took, was someone to approach my friend to break that ice.

I have lost count on the number of bad impressions I have given to people. I have often hear comments like “You look fierce”, “You look way cool”, “You don’t look like someone I will talk to initially” or straight forward “I didn’t like you in the beginning.”. After which, I will be nearly “begging” my friends “Hey… That’s not a fair judgment! I can’t help how I look… But I don’t eat you when you spoke to me right?…”

When I was much younger than what I am now, I get pretty confused why no one dare to ask me the simple question “How are you?”. I will often wonder “Am I really that fierce?”. However, when I give it a real thought NOW, I have come to understand also that asking that the simple question is REALLY not easy too! Sometimes, I may just have to brace myself for a very bad response and perhaps, I am guilty of that sometimes! I may have indeed given such a bad response that “scared” my friends off from asking that simple question.

By and by, I honestly, don't really care how people view me. If they wanna think that I am unfriendly, then so be it. I will live my life "MY WAY"! =)

Awhile later in Brisbane, I start to see the importance of putting on a good countenance. I start to constantly and conscientiously take care of the image that I am giving to people. Personally, I want to take ownership also that I am an ambassador of Christ! It's really no longer MY WAY but GOD'S WAY! I can’t imagine how things will really be if people kept thinking that I look fierce! Well, be patient with me ya! I am STILL making the effort to SMILE and not look fierce! Heehee..

Life is INDEED beautiful no matter which angle I look at it. Just keep a thankful heart and I am sure I will see more of Life's Beauty!