Ever had a tugging session with God? I had one today.
I literally battled with God from the time I stepped out of my house to the time I stepped back to my house.
I started with anger. Then it went on to anxiety. Then it went on to feeling pain. Then, I calmed down. Then I battle. Then I let go.
In all the tuggings and pulling the rope, it felt real painful. First, my hands were hurt. At the end of it, blisters were all over. But I felt that I couldn't let go of the rope because I was very afraid that the fall will be painful! God kept telling me "Let go! I will catch you when you fall!".
At the end, I decided to let go of the rope but the fall wasn't painful. Because God was there. Hmm.. Throughout the whole process, I seem to have cushion all over me.
Jesus says "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me."
3 comments:
San, very familar to me... haha
Call it stubborness, faithless, egoistic.. whatever. I've learnt that this is real and will continue in life. Sometimes, its just a matter of taking a step to make that RIGHT decision to let go. At the end of the day, it doesn't seem so bad afterall...:0)
=) Yup..! Totally agree with you.. :) Thanks for the encouragement!
Hi.. Cara right? Thanks for NOT only dropping by but the encouragement too! It's letting go and letting God work. Indeed, sometimes, I feel that I yelled till I have no more voice but still, I am glad I had that wrestle with God. Wrestling somehow has the effect of closeness and surrendering and pondering and questioning and well.. the list goes on.. :)
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