For the first time in my life, I stepped into the family court. For the first time in my life, I stepped into the police post. I managed to keep my cool the whole day. Yet, throughout the day, there were lots and LOTS of questions that ran through my head. Lots of "Why?", lots of uncertainty, lots of feelings that I hate to have.
A pic that I took outside the Family Court since it was my first time there. I went in with a heavy heart. I left with a heavier heart..Haha..
I spent my evening meeting a good friend for dinner. It was a GREAT dinner cause I had an avenue of letting off my emotions. What makes a good friend is one who is willing to listen to my crap though it may simply seem alien. Then we went for a short shopping trip. I am amazed that by 2059hrs, shutters go crashing down already. Then wow.. we went for a great expedition! First, we went to Nexus (church) and took about 10 mins before I could get to the Gents. [Ok.. The Gents now is a small storeroom for a huge compressed styrofoam boards] Well, apparently, the boards weren't put properly and it was found lying on the floor! Now.. how did we found it lying? Because we can't open the door!!!!!! It was a great feat that 2 gals performed with 2 poles and one small knife trying to lift the VERY heavy boards up with just a 20cm opening. Anyway, thanks to my friend's smart thinking, it was up in half an hour's time! *Phew* And hee.. I got a lift home.
Well, getting home was really quite a dread. In the midst of us finding the way to Nexus, my sister smsed me warning me that my dad is angry about something. Awhile later, my mum call me to warn me too. And in all honesty, I felt that the issue was really small but was kicked big. And so, on my way home, I was trying to RELAX and prepare myself. Truth be told, I had a bad night. Hmm.. I sort of shouted at my dad about leaving me alone just for tonight. As quick as my temper flared, I was quicken to regret too. I felt really bad. In the end, I just cried. Man.. It was an emotional day. It's times like these [thank God it's REALLY once in a blue moon!] that I thank God that above all else, I have God to turn to. I blasted my P&W music and I decided to pray and sing. I feel better now after 2 hrs. [I will think of how to apologise to my dad tomorrow *cross my fingers*]
Looking back at my day, I felt that God was with me throughout. Everything seemed to have a purpose. I wasn't supposed to meet my friend. I was supposed to be in Nexus alone, grab the styrofoam board and just go. However, I start to wonder - What will happen if my friend is NOT around? I would NOT be able to get the board and I am serious that it's really hard. And after 6 months of work, there have been many times that I feel like crying OUT LOUD yet there's tears but just can't cry. So I felt that, though it may not be for the correct purpose tonight but I felt real good crying out loud to God for a LONG time! I know God is really training me and stretching me and I want to choose to give thanks. OOH! Best of all! After the cry, I was SO hungry!! Man! My stomach growled yet I don't feel like stepping out of my room. Thankfully, I had a packet of biscuits that my friend bought for me to bring to my work. Well, it was prematuredly opened.
Well, in good times and in bad times, it just feels good praising the Lord!
It's a beautiful day in 7 hours time!!
A pic that was sent to encourage me.. To remind me of church camp that was just over. At the same time, I just remember His vast love for me. Love the sea..
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