And so, in continuation to my conversation with boss.
He asked a question "Why is it that often when kids come to the Residential Home and they act up. Then as staff, as adults, we clam up and start fearing them and wonder why they act up? Isn't kids who act up most expected in this line of work?"
Honestly, expectations either prepare us or pull us down.
Recently, I have a boy who really really REALLY test my patience. Often, I have to grasp both my hands together to avoid a slap across his face. ALL the time, I have to watch my tone of voice cause easily, it will raise. Each time he gives me a smile, I feel like crying. I dread the moment while he is in the Home (cause I can never get my work done). I love each moment of peace when he's out.
And then I ask myself - When I assessed his case and write supporting letters to the court to have him in our Home, isn't his behaviour what I had already expected? Why am I reacting now? Have I lost my focus?
Conclusion: It's only with challenges that growth can happen.
Just had to snap this picture as I stepped out of my boss' office. A wonderful wonderful sight. I love where my Home is located at now. Lots of greeneries, vast skies and a beach nearby. Often I will go for walks to relax to have a breather. Alas, the ONLY thing I really detest is getting there from my own home. Heehee... I guess I can't have the best of both worlds!
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