Sunday, May 13, 2007

My dearest Mummy...

I had a good time of crying a few nights ago and had let off some frustrations. I was doing a read up again on an article with reference to 1 Corinthians 13 and this is what I felt was impressed to me.

It's said in the bible that "The Greatest of these is Love".. Out of faith, hope and love, love is the greatest. Love is permanent and it's God's nature and character to love us. Thus when He sees sin, He grieves. He grieves because He loves us so. Faith ushers us into the Kingdom of God and accomplishes great works but it's love that conquers all. It hit me then (again) that Love is the foundation of all commandments because God is love. The first commandment that was given to us was simply to love God with all heart, mind, soul & strength.

Having Mother's Day coming around the corner, these days, I have been thinking about this thing call love. Looking at how mummy take care of daddy, I truly feel that I pale in comparison. Today's church bulletin says it all for my lovely mummy..

I truly feel with all my heart that mummy's a wife that has a heart of integrity, a character that's noble and worth more than anything and everything in the whole wide world. At least, I know my sis and I will never trade her for any other mummies..

Today, sis and I got Jan to join us for the Theatre - Phantom of the Opera at Esplanade. Last year, mummy saw the advert for POTO and came to my room whilst I was sleeping and whispered to me "Hey San.. POTO is back.." We purchased 3 tickets - Dad, Mum and me. Dad got hospitalized and we sold those 3 tickets and bought 3 more tickets for today in hope that Dad would have improved and is able to go. Unfortunately, hopes dashed. Sis and I were rather upset that parents can't watch it cause we know she has been anticipating for a long long time... (Will just have to make up with a DVD)

I enjoyed myself tremendously. I felt that I understood the play much more as compared to nearly a decade ago. Back then, the play was only a play with super nice songs. Today, somehow, I could nearly feel tears dropping towards the end. I felt very sad for the phantom - who's neither ghost yet he don't seem to consider himself human too. Someone who lives behind a mask. Insecurity, lack of confidence, want to love but dare not love... In retrospect, I do feel that sometimes, we do live behind the various masks we wear. I do feel, though, that the more we try to cover up, the more we can't hide it. *thoughts only*

Poor Jan... *tsk*.. the Phantom must have bored her.. Hahah!

Our first emotional card to Mummy dearest...

OH OH!!! I got a sms from my best friend smsing on behalf of my Godsons.. "Happy Mother's Day - fm Matthew and John"... Put me to shame cause I am one of the worst Godma any kids can have. I haven't seen them in MONTHS!!!! Not even during Matt's birthday... *SOB* I miss them lots... Really wanna a hug from them...