Going Home

Daddy's finally home yesterday after 62 days. He was ecstatic, excited and could see from his eyes how glad he was to be back home. He whispered to me in the car "My struggles are worthwhile. The wait back home is finally over..". I said a quick prayer that he will not stop struggling. It's only through struggles that he will continue to fight to conquer rehab.

It was quite a feat getting my dad in and out of car but I was real thankful that Carol's b/f was able to make it in time! Having a guy around does help quite a bit. When we returned home, the two doggies were practically all over dad especially Spanner. He was licking dad all over the face, legs, hands. He licked so much until my dad has to pushed him aside. Haaaa... For awhile, I was rather comforted as I know then that if I "disappear" from home for awhile, I will never be forgotten.

Things got a little trickier with dad at home. Gotta help dad transfer from bed to chair, chair to bed, daily stuffs like eat, wash, bathe (mummy in charge). My dad still has a little of orientation problem. Sometimes, he'll imagine himself to be still in the hospital calling out for nurses. Often, he will recall the day the stroke hit him. When it happens, his mood goes down and fear creep in. I guess the fear is real and we told him that we recognize it. However, we also emphasize that what has happened has been in the past.

For now, personal schedules are kinda set aside. Gotta start planning with sister on her timing so that we both can help elevate a little of my mum's chores.

On a personal note, there is no doubt at all that there are times when I feel extremely exhausted (or perhaps, a better word would be discouraged) despite efforts of trying to lift my spirits high. Often times, I will remind myself not to think of the tiredness cause I do believe that the more I think of it, the more tired I will be. God's timing is perfect though.. He sent a friend to send me a link. Amazing Grace (My chains are Gone). Once again reminding me - How loved I really am... And I am so sure that God's amazing grace is with daddy also. I am so so sure that God's amazing love is upon him too! I am SO sure that his strength and courage is just a prayer away! For He has said in His word "Ask and it will be given." For I know that in the past, whenever I are discouraged, God is always nearby picking me up.