Today

How often have I gone "Shit! I should have made the decision yesterday!", "Aiya! Why didn't this happened to me?". Too often we wallow in self pity. Too often we mull over the what-we-have-already-lost and missed on on the what-we-could-have.

I'd be honest. Very honest. I was reading blogs, watching short prayer clips on the happenings Down Under in our Hope Brisbane church. Memories journeyed back to the LC at Hong Kong last year and I was wow-ed by the presence of God when it was the Brisbane's worship band. I thought "Wow!!! I haven't had that type of Wow moment for a long time." (With no offense to anybody in Singapore please)

I started to wonder "What a difference it WOULD would WOULD have made to me if I had continued my stay there in Brisbane!". That thought floated from my left brain to my right brain and soon, it dwindled. Suddenly, I heard a voice telling me "Tell me, what difference COULD you, YES YOU!!, have made if you had remained in Brisbane?".

Trust me, my heart skipped aplenty. I nearly fell off my chair. I thought I could not breathe. Literally. I was shocked and astounded. Immediately, I prayed, sought forgiveness and humbled myself before God. Man! That green question was such a reminder of my selfishness, more of me ME ME, a reminder of my ability to be envious, my ability to be a receiver and not a giver, a reminder of how covetous I can be.

This is not the first time I wondered how different life would have been if I had stayed on in Brisbane (not that I am utterly in love with Brisbane also). However, none of it spoke to me like how God spoke to me this time.

I have only one life to live and I want to live it to the best. I do not want to look back at what I did not do yesterday and regret. I do not want to live in the thought of "What I should have" but to live in the thoughts of "What I already have and can achieve". There is only one Today. By the time it's Tomorrow, Today is gone. Time is the ONLY asset that I can never retrieve. God says that Today is the day that He has made and urged us to be glad and rejoice in it. Yes, there will still be moments of regret but it's ok! I make mistakes.. (Just don't make the same mistake the 2nd time). Hee...

"We demolish arguments and every pretention that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."
2 Corinthians 10:5 (NIV)