Thursday, March 05, 2009

Learning difficulties

An Education Psychologist told me today - The challenge in teaching children with learning difficulties is in helping them grasp the concept. We are not to just teach and they do. We are to empower them skills.

I remembered during my University days as I studied as to be an Engineer, I struggled SO much. The ONLY reason why I could get even a 2nd upper honors is simply because I purposefully chose subjects that has Mathematics components in it. However, if you ask me if I understand how those Laplace Transformations or Fourier Series is associated with Digital Signal Processing, I do not know. I only know that Mathematics can be scored well if I practice hard. I studied 2 years. The first year and half was such a torture for me. There was a period of time where my only way of coping was to cry. I cried for a month odd. That sense of frustration was so 'Argh!' that could have the ability to dis-empower my self-esteem (if not for prayers). By God's grace, in my last half year, I began to grasp concepts and was able to understand better. I felt lighter, freer.

I often think that I am a slow learner. I do think that I have what they call 'Learning difficulties" when I was young. To a certain extend, I am able to feel how frustrated my kids can be in their classes. They may be in Primary 6 but their cognitive level could just well be Primary 1. For a child who has the added protective factor to be patient to sit through the class and know how to regulate emotions, good - No acting up, just lots of inner frustrations perhaps. For a child who lacks the patience and self-control, it's no wonder why he would choose to roam around the school compound.

I am typing this out of frustration because I do find that our normal school system does not have the capacity to manage children of lower cognitive level YET not fit into any special needs school. Yes, I am praying for God to intervene in one of my kids. Today, I return home feeling deeply saddened.

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