Precious Sunday

Last night, I went to bed with a heavy & upset heart, wondering how could I have done better, if I could. I tried to put things aside, I tried to not think about it, I tried to look at things positively & optimistically but it's like a thorn in the heart. Nonetheless, I prayed & told God that there's really nothing I can do. I ask God to refresh me so that I can return to HopeKids today refreshed. Somehow, when I woke up today, a song was placed in my head "5 loaves & 2 fishes" by Corrine May. As I walked my dog, I kept singing it.

Ever since I started having to have work duties on Sunday, being able to be at church on Sundays & spending time with CG has became very precious to me. Today, my Sunday is very precious because I spent my time with my kids & leaders at HopeKids.

I took a quarter break from HopeKids for nearly 4 months. Today is my first time back after a long while. I woke up feeling excited & in anticipation. I actually prepared a packet of Marshmellow JUST IN CASE the kids have difficulty warming up to me. I was pleasantly surprised that I do not need the Marshmellows & warming up was easy. I really felt welcomed. In fact, 2 kids actually came up to me and told me the changes HopeKids has had. Some came up and hugged me. Some asked if I am back to lead games

Coincidentally or by the timing of God, the Worship Leader shared that she was touched the story of 5 loaves & 2 fish where Jesus fed more than 4000 people. When we are faithful with little, God will multiply & bless us. I was reminded that every little that I have, belongs to God. Every little & minute sadness that I have also belongs to God. God will take it & comfort me.

Later in the afternoon, I attended a HopeKids leadership huddle (halfway through, I wondered if I was supposed to be there cause everyone seemed to be in HopeKids full time!). NONETHELESS, I never regretted being there. Hong Teck delivered a fantastic teaching on the steps towards learned optimism.

After such a long blog, what I really want to say is this: God always answer prayers. Last night, I asked God "Don't go too far from me." Today, I really felt that God is so so so close to me. Right from the time I woke up with the song to now.