Comforted

I cried half a day. No. I bawled. To be exact, it's the whole morning. From the time I stepped into office to lunch time.

For reasons that I cannot explain, due to work confidentiality, I will only share how I stopped bawling like a baby.

In the morning when I woke up, I was very tempted to go to the doctor & get a day of Medical Leave. However, I couldn't bring myself to do it since I really wasn't sick. Since the meeting that ended at 9pm last night, I haven't been feeling too good - emotionally. Whilst still on bed, I asked God for a word. He's faithful; He gave me a verse & a song.

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. - Psalms 23:1

I kinda told God "Orh..", then I went on to do my usual routine - bathe, walked my dog, have breakfast, set off to work.

When I reached the office, I switched on the PC & I just start to tear (not that want to). Tearing soon became crying. Unknowingly, it became bawling. I went to my favorite place - The toilet. Because the ventilation was SO terrible, I kinda hyperventilate. Stepped out of it & decided that a walk around the neighborhood would do me good.

The walk was good. As I sat under the light drizzle & scorching sun, overlooking a rather vast green land (vast because we are in Singapore), the verse from my morning continued.

He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. - Psalms 23:2-3a

I did not know what happened. I just simply stopped crying & felt comforted. Very comforted. I sat for awhile longer & made my way back to office.

When I stepped in, the auntie (at my office), informed me that my big boss called. She also "sayang" me, patting my back, assuring me that all is well & all will be well.

I called my big boss, expecting to be questioned. Well, I was questioned but it's also through that question that he encouraged me too.

I cannot say that I am in the BEST of spirits right now but I CAN say that God is always always here for us. Last night when I came home, I have had wanted so much to talk to someone. Yet, something kept me from calling anyone. Even as I spoke to my friend this morning, it was just brief as I really do not know how to put things across. It's in those short moments when I took my walk, I understood the song "What a friend we have in Jesus".

Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth. - Psalms 46:10