Lars & the real girl

I really did not want to miss this show so I went to watch it after work today. Turned out to be a highly fantastic show. (Disclaimer: By my own standard) By the critic's definition, it's a comedy. By my definition, it's really more than a comedy.

Lars' mother passed away when he was very young (or by birth). Elder brother, Gus, ran away when he couldn't handle their father & father did not seemed to raise Lars up well. When Gus returned to take over the house, Lars was already living in the garage like a family dog, as described by Gus. Introverted, heavily laden with huge emotional baggage, he grew up into a man filled with pain, unable to get close to anyone for fear of abandonment and/or loss. One day, Lars introduced his girlfriend, Bianca to his brother & sis-in-law, Karin. Only that Bianca is really a life-sized doll. With very strong encouragement from Karin & family doctor (who diagnosed him with Delusion), everyone in the town agreed to play along with him, treating Bianca as if she is a real human. Everything was staged by Lars, from Bianca having an illness to Bianca being unconscious to her death. During which, when Bianca was about to die, the community come together to share life with him, share about how losing someone is like, etc. Soon, when he was ready to let go of his own pain, Bianca died.

For me, it's a show filled with deep deep inner emotions. Letting go. Letting go is often the hardest thing to do. Your heart flutters & beat erratically, your mind is in a turmoil, you want to go left yet every part of your being turns right. Getting to sleep is hard cause something is interrupting. Soon, you drift into sleep & next day, when you wake up, you wake up to the emotion & again, it's a one day cycle.

I certainly have not gone through abandonment or a great loss but I recently learned a thing or two about letting go. "Letting go" (to me) is about looking face to face at the situation & confront it. However, then I realize that not every situation can be confronted and so, to me, it's about making the choice to tell God everyday "God, I give it to you."

*Oh*... NOTHING to worry about.. I am not going through huge hurdles in life. Hee..