Getting Ready

No matter how prepared I can be, news such as a colleague moving on is still saddening. This afternoon, we had a 15mins meeting just for our ED, Dep ED and another dept AD to tell us that my boss is leaving. The meeting was JUST 15 mins. Thereafter, all 5 caseworkers took turns to be "interviewed" by the 'D's.

As I stepped out of the 15-min long meeting, I can't help but feel sad. I looked at my colleague and she looked at me. Suddenly, no matter how prepared we were, we know that we were still not prepared for it. Next thing I knew, I needed the toilet to drop some tears. (God knows how fantastic a friend the toilet has been for me!)

Came out and in my most logical mind told myself that changes are good. More importantly, if this change is going to bring happiness to my boss, his happiness will be more important than for me to want him to stay physically and be sad. Yes.. It must have been a tough call for him to make but the LEAST we could do is to make his departure a happy one. Working relationship may stop. But that's when friendship begins.

Anyway, just as I was ready for the departure news, I was TOTALLY not ready for the "interview" by the 'D's. All of a sudden, I was questioned - What are your strengths? What strengths do you bring to your team? What do you contribute to your team? And well, like any other interview, one question will ALWAYS lead to another. Kept reminding myself to be honest with my feelings. How many times do I exactly get to sit down with the 'D's for a chat as such. But boy.. Was I stress!!

Well, I left on the dot since I met up with my polyclinic colleagues for dinner. Guess what! Hahaha!! The dance that I actually helped them choreographed actually got into semi-finals for the National Healthy Week and hahah!! I am hoping to see them in finals!! Dinner was good. Just as I was about to leave to meet my current colleagues, they told me they were about to leave so I stuck on with who I was with. You know.. after hearing all the medical/clinical jargons, I do miss my work there. I miss having to solve computer problems instead of human problems. I miss having to attend to a fire alarm. I miss having to chat with the doctors and nurses. I miss having someone barge into my office shouting at the top of their voice complaining about certain procedures. But I think more so than ever, I know I miss it ONLY because I really had good relationships with my colleagues there.

Relationships.

Relationship is the biggest mystery in the entire world! Relationship is ONE thing that bring one spirits either down OR up. Speak an edifying word and one's spirits edified and lifted. Speak a word that cut, one gets hurt.

My QT tonight is from 1 Corinthians 13:5 "Love... keeps no record of wrongs".. Man.. How difficult can it be to erase hurts and keep no record of wrongs? How difficult can it be to give unconditional love? How difficult can it be not to have expectations? How HOW HOW HOW difficult to love without receiving love?

Thank you God simply for loving me unconditionally.